isotonic :P
anyway, since i am left stranded in college today, i had time to do a lot of reviving. example, my blog and a long forgotten place, frienster.
sounds like a real strange wort now, doesn't it. but if you could remember, msn and frienster were only as common as facebook was when we were in secondary.
so what happened?
1. facebook came
2. facebook ruled
3. facebook was more fun
4. frienster was damn outdated
it took me a while to recall my password. when i logged it, it seem like a whole new world. the picture that looked back at me in the display pic was so.. weird. i dont know, it just, dosn't feel like me, ya know?
the picture were so kiddish, so 'act cute', so childish. it was like from another dimension. my features didn't change much, but the way i try to look cute in front of the camera lens, is enough to send shivers down my spine.
and there it was, an album title that once made me feel warm n snugly. i cant believe what happened to it. i cant believe how much tears and heart break it caused...no, actually, i can believe how much tears and heart break it'll cause.
i knew it the minute i decided i want them to be my buddies.
i knew it the minute we promised we'll make each other our brides maid on our wedding day.
i knew it when we started sharing a diary.
i knew it when we made fun of each other and i still wanted to be friends even though they do not understand me and often hide at home crying at what they thought were jokes but i didn't.
but i did not know we'll ever have this situation.
i didn't know things will turn out this way.
i didn't know the bbq party we were having together will be our last.
i didn't know the whipped cream fight we had at every birthday will come to an end.
i didn't know we would never have any more sleep overs.
i didn't know the first baked cheese cake she ever baked for her, will also be the last.
i didn't know we'll never have chance to cam whore like crazy till we didn't have time to do anything else.
i didn't know i'll one day stare at these pictures and type a sad bog post about it.
....
now,
how am i gonna get 4 people who laughed at me and yet try to teach me to play mah jong for new year?
how am i gonna get that baked cheese cake you promised to bake for me?
how am i gonna have the chance to ever tell you guys, how very much i love you guys..
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why am i always typing about sad stuff? that people i care for are going away?
dont blame me for fighting on maintain-ing this relationship. i care and want it back too much to bother about your opinion on this.
i don't believe we'll end like this
Sunday, November 7, 2010
Friday, August 20, 2010
hard to understand feelings
i used to have a great friend i always worry about. worry about her studies, worry about how she coping with all the bad luck she's having.
it's a mixed feeling really. i feel mad at her, but happy for her yet confused with a touch of jeolousy. and have you ever wondered why is jeolousy spelt as jeolousy? case it's a 'lousy' feeling.
she has the worst luck i've ever seen in anybody. but yet, as i told her, she is also the strongest person i know. therefore, i truely think she deserves the happiness she is having now, it's the least fate could do for her.
her studies were never fantastic, but now, when i ask, she'll happily tell me of how she is a fast learner and passed all her papers.
she used stick to herself. sitting quietly at 1 corner doing her stuff wheen no one talks to her. when i ask her to mix around, she ask me why should she do that? "they want to talk, talk la, i what also ok de. whatever la."
she used to tell me stories of how popular she was in her old school. but now, she doesn't tell me anything anymore because she's too busy.
she used to say how she sometimes felt like dying or the quarrels she had with her mom. i bet now, she'd give anything to live another day in her happy college life.
she used to call me, and we chat for hours. now i when i call her, it lasted only 12 minutes, with me left on the other end of the telphone line feeling hollow on the inside. it was the longest 12 minute phone call i ever had.
and i?
i loved hthe carefree-ness she had
i loved the spark of self confidence she had once in a while
i loved the way she bully guys
i loved the way she talk
i loved the way she would glare and dare people to hit her back
but...i also started to hate the few people who dumped her and talked bad about her during her tough period for her when i dont even have people i hate myself.
:(
i miss her very very much.
she is now a pretty, confident, briliant and most of all a happy girl of 17. and one of the main causes that helped me release myself from facebook addiction because everytime i go online, she's there posting happy pictures of herself and her friends which reminds me greatly of what's happening.
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i'm pissed off about the fact that she is totally disconcerned about me to not even feel happy when i called and told me that i changed to be so 'luo suo' when the fact is that the person who changed the most, is her.
i'm pissed off about the fact that, when she wanted to forget her past because it's so painful, she left me behind, someone she used to call a friend she trust.
i'm pissed off about the fact that she told me she didn't contact anybody from secondary school. but i see her chatting with the exact people she made me hate for a period of time in secondary even if they are now in the same college she's in.
i pissed off at how she did not even care to spend a few minutes of her many facebook hours to drop by my wall n just post a 'hi' or 'hey, no worries, i still rmb you'
and most of all, i pissed off at the fact that i was wrong when i told myself, "this girl and i, we are going to go a long way in the future" . or maybe i wasn't, i've no idea. but i cant believe that this post, is going to officially be the most tear inducing post to type since i started it. and i'm typing this in college library, those people must think i'm nuts. but like i said, it was unexpected.
i guess now i dont have to decide who to dump, my bro or her on 31st of oct to celebrate a special day.
wonder if i'll ever ask her to read this. guess she wouldn't read it even if i had. she's too busy, plus she doesn't like philosophy. she'll say, 'aiya, whatever la'
to this friend of mine:
like you said, whatever la. if i continue being upset or emo about this, i'm gonna sound like a total dumped-ex-lover, which is purely disgusting, being the fact that i'm a really normal girl.
lets be happy. i'll learn to accept that you might not care for me as a friend as much as i do. but it'l be alot easier if you could help me with it. what do you say? xian? *hugs*
it's a mixed feeling really. i feel mad at her, but happy for her yet confused with a touch of jeolousy. and have you ever wondered why is jeolousy spelt as jeolousy? case it's a 'lousy' feeling.
she has the worst luck i've ever seen in anybody. but yet, as i told her, she is also the strongest person i know. therefore, i truely think she deserves the happiness she is having now, it's the least fate could do for her.
her studies were never fantastic, but now, when i ask, she'll happily tell me of how she is a fast learner and passed all her papers.
she used stick to herself. sitting quietly at 1 corner doing her stuff wheen no one talks to her. when i ask her to mix around, she ask me why should she do that? "they want to talk, talk la, i what also ok de. whatever la."
she used to tell me stories of how popular she was in her old school. but now, she doesn't tell me anything anymore because she's too busy.
she used to say how she sometimes felt like dying or the quarrels she had with her mom. i bet now, she'd give anything to live another day in her happy college life.
she used to call me, and we chat for hours. now i when i call her, it lasted only 12 minutes, with me left on the other end of the telphone line feeling hollow on the inside. it was the longest 12 minute phone call i ever had.
and i?
i loved hthe carefree-ness she had
i loved the spark of self confidence she had once in a while
i loved the way she bully guys
i loved the way she talk
i loved the way she would glare and dare people to hit her back
but...i also started to hate the few people who dumped her and talked bad about her during her tough period for her when i dont even have people i hate myself.
:(
i miss her very very much.
she is now a pretty, confident, briliant and most of all a happy girl of 17. and one of the main causes that helped me release myself from facebook addiction because everytime i go online, she's there posting happy pictures of herself and her friends which reminds me greatly of what's happening.
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i'm pissed off about the fact that she is totally disconcerned about me to not even feel happy when i called and told me that i changed to be so 'luo suo' when the fact is that the person who changed the most, is her.
i'm pissed off about the fact that, when she wanted to forget her past because it's so painful, she left me behind, someone she used to call a friend she trust.
i'm pissed off about the fact that she told me she didn't contact anybody from secondary school. but i see her chatting with the exact people she made me hate for a period of time in secondary even if they are now in the same college she's in.
i pissed off at how she did not even care to spend a few minutes of her many facebook hours to drop by my wall n just post a 'hi' or 'hey, no worries, i still rmb you'
and most of all, i pissed off at the fact that i was wrong when i told myself, "this girl and i, we are going to go a long way in the future" . or maybe i wasn't, i've no idea. but i cant believe that this post, is going to officially be the most tear inducing post to type since i started it. and i'm typing this in college library, those people must think i'm nuts. but like i said, it was unexpected.
i guess now i dont have to decide who to dump, my bro or her on 31st of oct to celebrate a special day.
wonder if i'll ever ask her to read this. guess she wouldn't read it even if i had. she's too busy, plus she doesn't like philosophy. she'll say, 'aiya, whatever la'
to this friend of mine:
like you said, whatever la. if i continue being upset or emo about this, i'm gonna sound like a total dumped-ex-lover, which is purely disgusting, being the fact that i'm a really normal girl.
lets be happy. i'll learn to accept that you might not care for me as a friend as much as i do. but it'l be alot easier if you could help me with it. what do you say? xian? *hugs*
Thursday, July 22, 2010
i'm BORED
it's not boredom from nothing to do, it's more like boredom from being stuck at the same phase of my life for the past few months.
for knowing how much i could have done in the past but couldn't do anything about it any more.
for realising now that being cool, isn't really that cool.
for realising now how much i miss being able to chat without worries to people i care instead of having to comfort them about things like every-things-ok-with-your-relationship ( irony considering the fact i was NEVER in a relationship )
for suddenly realising people you dont use to care so much about might mean alot to you in the future.
for suddenly realising how much of myself i lost in the process of trying to be someone i wanted to be.
for having to be nice to people who hated me from the begining of the year because of a small minor error in what i said because i want to mend it
for feeling like i had left out on one of the most fun periods in my life which i could have enjoyed but was to lazy to enjoy it or was plain lazy.
for having to put up a i'm-fine-and-am-not-emoing when i am obviously emoing
for having to deal with other's love problems on almost every call i get
for having to deal with everything myself when i am emo because i cant bear to tell anyone else and ruin thier perfect image of the happy me because they depend on me for comfort
but mostly
for feeling like a total pathetic loser i am feeling now.
which is why,
if you guys at college ever reads this since none of you knows my blog
will understand the reason why i never told about my blog.
nice way of putting it, i care too much.
bad way of putting this, i love myself too much.
gosh, i cant tell all of you who were once my school mates how much i missed you guys.... even though i never been to any trips with you in the past or bothered to talk to you in the past. those feelings i longed for in the past was there because you guys were there. all of you. no matter how long was it since i last contacted you or how many topics we share.
love you guys. and will continue loving all of you in this dead blog not many people know about.
becca- u better call me SOON. or i swear i'll.....do something UNTHINKABLE :x
po chi - somebody promised to call me on 21st of july? o.O
sheou jun-
and loads of other people whom i wont bother to label here since they either
1) doesn't know i have a blog
2) dont bother to read
or
3)never bother about this small homosapien who owns this blog
anyhow, i'd really enjoy a nice notification on my fb that somebody misses me. ( instead of the usual 'somebody tagged you in a photo' )
dont mind the fact i sound pethatic in this post -.-
Sunday, July 11, 2010
wooohooooo~
sorry ppl ( if there r still any ppl out there who realise i own a blog and have NOT forgotten about it ), abandoned blog for more than 4 months already. time i dug it back up and start typing x)
4 months is a long period of time. the last time i blogged, i haven't even finished my first round of finals and was fretting over wether i will pass T1 and T2. ( stupid thought -.- i mean.... do smart ppl like me FAIL easy exams that only require u to click your chosen answer into the computer? DUH!!! of course they do. why else do you think i'll FRET??? )
now, lets see where in my many stages of life i am in now.
i passed my T1 and T2 *screams of joy in the back*
i sat for my T3, T4 and T5 (yes, i studied, cried, slept, fret, ignored exam, stressed for 3 months before the exam... [ not that THAT many ppl knew or BOTHERED to know if i did] )
i got a job, credits to ellie :) whom i bet doesn't know her name is appearing on a blog she doesn't even know exists. i earn 80 bucks a day selling 3 weeks of kiwi and 1 week of 'safeggs'. the eggs were a stupid thing -.- i mean, who would pay 1 BUCK to buy eggs ppl CLAIM to be PASTURISED and has ADDED DHA???!!! ( 'claimed' meaning they MIGHT have but i have no idea if they are telling the truth ) anyway, you don't want to see me on a court case for sabotaging other's business, do you? so i'll just drop it at that. but kiwi was SOOO fun! i get to meet 'safegg' promoters who all turn out to be pretty cool ppl cause we work same days ( meaing i won't be all lonely and start talking to the na bet supervisor who took a liking to me because i sold all his kiwi stock and broke their record ) and they are all newbies so i get to act like a total you-guys-have-no-idea-how-to-do-it-right-so-worship-me-and-i'll-teach-you sucker! Lol, it lasted only a few seconds for every promoter i meet, but i love to think of myself as a MEANIE x) guilty pleasure ;P nyway, i'll be glad to leave, ( after supposingly 8 days but worked another 2 extra days as a extra favour AFTER i supposingly resigned ) since the staffs are SO friendly to me now, they even tickle me! x.x
i meet a few interesting characters that i found joy in chatting with. these characters go by the name of alvin liu something and colin something. i actually felt closer to alvin, whom i've only knew a few hours, than my colledge mates whom i knew for MONTHs. ( but nothing beats chatting and spilling things and teasing and getting teased and gossiping and having fun with u guys whom my life used to spin around when i was in secondary school. cheers. ;'])
i read, harry potter series, pendragon, and some other books my mom randomly borrowed from PJ library.
i stayed at hospital KL for a night. ( to look after my grandma who went for a minor operation which did NOT take place in the end ) fantastic experience i tell you, but not necessarry in the good way.
i 'supposingly' switched my phone and 'supposingly' gave my brother my old phone. but i loved my old phone too much, there were too many sweet messages which i kept from ppl i cared there that could not be transfered. i hadn't the heart to give it away :'(
i am watching 'vampire diaries' and 'gossip girls' ( gaaahhhhh~ i asolutely LOVE Chuck. ignoring the fact that he's a totally spoilt rich bastered who is immensly annoying when he is emo, he a GREAT boyfriend...... i cant believe i'm saying this, he's not even cute! )
i gained x-kg. ( becca!!! u said you'll come here n we'd go jogging together x( come on! i need to get my butt off my comfy bed )
i went and came back from a family trip to cambodia :)
i went and came back from a class trip to genting.
i was officially hated by 2 girls in my class whom i used to look up to because of something i innocently joked about in the BEGINING of my first semester. ( 3 actually, but 1 of them is currently a friend )
i currently support SPAIN after argentina loss 4-0 to germany ==
my 2 girl friends whom was with me since beggining of sem is currently dating my 2 boy friends whom was in the gang since begining of sem leaving me, a loner, sitting between 2 couples in the cinema. ==
oh,
and of course, there's the part about my long-ago-crush-whom-used-to-set-my-heart-fluttering who finally realised that he likes me == took him quite a while :( but like i said, 'used to' i'm not sure i still like him as much anymore
i wont bother you with the mushy details i'm sure u're not interested in. furthur details? ask me out to yam cha! or call me out!
so long, cheers ppl :)
4 months is a long period of time. the last time i blogged, i haven't even finished my first round of finals and was fretting over wether i will pass T1 and T2. ( stupid thought -.- i mean.... do smart ppl like me FAIL easy exams that only require u to click your chosen answer into the computer? DUH!!! of course they do. why else do you think i'll FRET??? )
now, lets see where in my many stages of life i am in now.
i passed my T1 and T2 *screams of joy in the back*
i sat for my T3, T4 and T5 (yes, i studied, cried, slept, fret, ignored exam, stressed for 3 months before the exam... [ not that THAT many ppl knew or BOTHERED to know if i did] )
i got a job, credits to ellie :) whom i bet doesn't know her name is appearing on a blog she doesn't even know exists. i earn 80 bucks a day selling 3 weeks of kiwi and 1 week of 'safeggs'. the eggs were a stupid thing -.- i mean, who would pay 1 BUCK to buy eggs ppl CLAIM to be PASTURISED and has ADDED DHA???!!! ( 'claimed' meaning they MIGHT have but i have no idea if they are telling the truth ) anyway, you don't want to see me on a court case for sabotaging other's business, do you? so i'll just drop it at that. but kiwi was SOOO fun! i get to meet 'safegg' promoters who all turn out to be pretty cool ppl cause we work same days ( meaing i won't be all lonely and start talking to the na bet supervisor who took a liking to me because i sold all his kiwi stock and broke their record ) and they are all newbies so i get to act like a total you-guys-have-no-idea-how-to-do-it-right-so-worship-me-and-i'll-teach-you sucker! Lol, it lasted only a few seconds for every promoter i meet, but i love to think of myself as a MEANIE x) guilty pleasure ;P nyway, i'll be glad to leave, ( after supposingly 8 days but worked another 2 extra days as a extra favour AFTER i supposingly resigned ) since the staffs are SO friendly to me now, they even tickle me! x.x
i meet a few interesting characters that i found joy in chatting with. these characters go by the name of alvin liu something and colin something. i actually felt closer to alvin, whom i've only knew a few hours, than my colledge mates whom i knew for MONTHs. ( but nothing beats chatting and spilling things and teasing and getting teased and gossiping and having fun with u guys whom my life used to spin around when i was in secondary school. cheers. ;'])
i read, harry potter series, pendragon, and some other books my mom randomly borrowed from PJ library.
i stayed at hospital KL for a night. ( to look after my grandma who went for a minor operation which did NOT take place in the end ) fantastic experience i tell you, but not necessarry in the good way.
i 'supposingly' switched my phone and 'supposingly' gave my brother my old phone. but i loved my old phone too much, there were too many sweet messages which i kept from ppl i cared there that could not be transfered. i hadn't the heart to give it away :'(
i am watching 'vampire diaries' and 'gossip girls' ( gaaahhhhh~ i asolutely LOVE Chuck. ignoring the fact that he's a totally spoilt rich bastered who is immensly annoying when he is emo, he a GREAT boyfriend...... i cant believe i'm saying this, he's not even cute! )
i gained x-kg. ( becca!!! u said you'll come here n we'd go jogging together x( come on! i need to get my butt off my comfy bed )
i went and came back from a family trip to cambodia :)
i went and came back from a class trip to genting.
i was officially hated by 2 girls in my class whom i used to look up to because of something i innocently joked about in the BEGINING of my first semester. ( 3 actually, but 1 of them is currently a friend )
i currently support SPAIN after argentina loss 4-0 to germany ==
my 2 girl friends whom was with me since beggining of sem is currently dating my 2 boy friends whom was in the gang since begining of sem leaving me, a loner, sitting between 2 couples in the cinema. ==
oh,
and of course, there's the part about my long-ago-crush-whom-used-to-set-my-heart-fluttering who finally realised that he likes me == took him quite a while :( but like i said, 'used to' i'm not sure i still like him as much anymore
i wont bother you with the mushy details i'm sure u're not interested in. furthur details? ask me out to yam cha! or call me out!
so long, cheers ppl :)
Friday, March 19, 2010
updates!!!!...finally
am currently blogging at Sunway University College library and is panic'ing while feeling guilty as it is less than 24 hours to my CAT, T1 and T2 exam but not doing anything about it.
somebody...MOTIVATE me!!!! >.< scream at me, pinch me, annoy me, bug me...help!!! lazy girl in serious need for motivation
so, back to main purpose. UPDATES.
apparently, i haven't updated in more than a month. too lazy to type 1 month's stuff now. just random nice stuff :)
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22nd Feb
class party!!
organised by Eli.
suggested by Ms Geetha.
everyone was required to bring sth. lazy me brought chips. x)
really really nice food contributed by class mates, rated by me. ( sorry if the food you brought is not rated here x.x )
rice balls-yee lynn
i tell you, theserice balls were so nice! and no wonder, her sister who came back frm a student exchange program in Japan thought her how to do it. :)
KFC (lol) - kai liang, zhen hui, zhan ping and jeremy
haha, they rushed off to pyramid to buy it after class. xD the fried chicken was the first to be cleared off!
potato, egg, cucumber salad- Jesseca
potato lover!!! >>>me explains it all, doesn't it? ;)
baked mash potato-Elizabeth
same as above. a true potato lover
apple pie- Daniel o.o
so pleasantly shocked that this guy can BAKE. WTH, i'm terrible. btw, the pie was really good. RECIPES!!!!
Choc chip cookies- vivien and vi ven
another pleasant surprise and a shock to my self esteem. gosh....are people born with baking abilities or what? cause i definately dont have it :(
some really nice i-dont-know-what-made-with-vege - by cassey
lol, ka may's a lucky girl ;)
PS: i pop'ed the bottle of sparkling juice! and shocked the guy on the first floor who's talking on the phone xP the first time in my life. it's fun :)
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28 Feb
go wan qi's house
determined-to-go-to-her-house me dumped alone to talk to her mom while she watches TV and ate a 3-hour dinner.
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1st March
sudden debate competition
CSB lesson ( comunication-sth-sth... it's english ) turned out to be a debate competion. i tell you... Ming Sung is a total crappin idiot. x(
he practically interupted all my speeches with craps. something about, wait... pornography??
the title,
advantages against disadvantages of the internet.
most teachers above 30, will definately vote for it's disadvatages.
unlucky me x.x
no results were anounced. i thought we did ok, and casey was really good, so was ka may!!! teacher praised them too...and me x)
we shoke hands after that. no hard feelings... right?
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6 March
laughed and watched a movie after crying and nearly jumping off the roof-top of sunway college. yup, i failed BOTH me exams by 1 mark EACH. maddening.
never managed to convince myself i was gonna be good at accounts...
ps. solomon kane is the MOST violent movie i've ever watched. Ying even cried watching.
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8th March
not being an avid(is there such word?) facebooker, i didn't see the notification for exam resits to bad-no-good-at-accounts-thus-failing-exam-students. saw only on the same morning as the resit exam.
dont even dare to imagine my results. ==
'tumpang'ed douglas' car back. :) thanks. was stuck in the jam, in a rain for...45 minutes?
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10th March
stayed over at Ying's house for thenight.
had burger ( without ketchup ), wedges ( not really crunchy ) and coke ( the only normal processed food as the only 'task' was to open the bottle ) for dinner.
played cards, learn how to play mah jong ( still blurr ) untill 3.30am.
amy stayed the night through awake.
ps. must have been some kind problem with nana's eye's that night.... she praised me trice in a day o.O
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11th March
dont ask.
it's bad.
so bad, i think it'll cost me a lot of courage if i'm gonna meet my really kind, good bio and chemistry teacher next time. :(
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12 March
vivien's birthday!!! she helped me a lot so i wanted it to be a surprise. too bad, she was too observant x( and i was too easy to see observe.
and i was just wondering if there was a even more blurr person than me in this world cause she didn't even ask when she saw me doing ' something' ( poking candles and panic-ing when i realise there is a missing candle on a chair opposite her) in front of her.
anyway, happy birthday!! remember to open all the wishing stars, kay? :)
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13th March
saw lots of people in the open day. wonder if i'll be seeing any of them soon here? it'll be fun!
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18th March
found this really exciting blog. credits to eva.
and changed the blog skin! credits to eva too!
go here >>>> Yasmine
don't be impressed. the link above to allow you readers ( if any ...x.x ) to go to her blog, is also help from eva.
ps. i'll never understand weired codings. computer illiterate aleart!!! x.x
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wish me luck! important-must-pass-or-else-have-to-pay-rm300-per-paper tmr!!!! pray for me... seriously ==
it's my last T1 and T2 exam tmr ( hopefully ) .... let me pass... please? * hopeful look*
somebody...MOTIVATE me!!!! >.< scream at me, pinch me, annoy me, bug me...help!!! lazy girl in serious need for motivation
so, back to main purpose. UPDATES.
apparently, i haven't updated in more than a month. too lazy to type 1 month's stuff now. just random nice stuff :)
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22nd Feb
class party!!
organised by Eli.
suggested by Ms Geetha.
everyone was required to bring sth. lazy me brought chips. x)
really really nice food contributed by class mates, rated by me. ( sorry if the food you brought is not rated here x.x )
rice balls-yee lynn
i tell you, theserice balls were so nice! and no wonder, her sister who came back frm a student exchange program in Japan thought her how to do it. :)
KFC (lol) - kai liang, zhen hui, zhan ping and jeremy
haha, they rushed off to pyramid to buy it after class. xD the fried chicken was the first to be cleared off!
potato, egg, cucumber salad- Jesseca
potato lover!!! >>>me explains it all, doesn't it? ;)
baked mash potato-Elizabeth
same as above. a true potato lover
apple pie- Daniel o.o
so pleasantly shocked that this guy can BAKE. WTH, i'm terrible. btw, the pie was really good. RECIPES!!!!
Choc chip cookies- vivien and vi ven
another pleasant surprise and a shock to my self esteem. gosh....are people born with baking abilities or what? cause i definately dont have it :(
some really nice i-dont-know-what-made-with-vege - by cassey
lol, ka may's a lucky girl ;)
PS: i pop'ed the bottle of sparkling juice! and shocked the guy on the first floor who's talking on the phone xP the first time in my life. it's fun :)
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28 Feb
go wan qi's house
determined-to-go-to-her-house me dumped alone to talk to her mom while she watches TV and ate a 3-hour dinner.
------------------------------------------
1st March
sudden debate competition
CSB lesson ( comunication-sth-sth... it's english ) turned out to be a debate competion. i tell you... Ming Sung is a total crappin idiot. x(
he practically interupted all my speeches with craps. something about, wait... pornography??
the title,
advantages against disadvantages of the internet.
most teachers above 30, will definately vote for it's disadvatages.
unlucky me x.x
no results were anounced. i thought we did ok, and casey was really good, so was ka may!!! teacher praised them too...and me x)
we shoke hands after that. no hard feelings... right?
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6 March
laughed and watched a movie after crying and nearly jumping off the roof-top of sunway college. yup, i failed BOTH me exams by 1 mark EACH. maddening.
never managed to convince myself i was gonna be good at accounts...
ps. solomon kane is the MOST violent movie i've ever watched. Ying even cried watching.
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8th March
not being an avid(is there such word?) facebooker, i didn't see the notification for exam resits to bad-no-good-at-accounts-thus-failing-exam-students. saw only on the same morning as the resit exam.
dont even dare to imagine my results. ==
'tumpang'ed douglas' car back. :) thanks. was stuck in the jam, in a rain for...45 minutes?
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10th March
stayed over at Ying's house for thenight.
had burger ( without ketchup ), wedges ( not really crunchy ) and coke ( the only normal processed food as the only 'task' was to open the bottle ) for dinner.
played cards, learn how to play mah jong ( still blurr ) untill 3.30am.
amy stayed the night through awake.
ps. must have been some kind problem with nana's eye's that night.... she praised me trice in a day o.O
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11th March
dont ask.
it's bad.
so bad, i think it'll cost me a lot of courage if i'm gonna meet my really kind, good bio and chemistry teacher next time. :(
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12 March
vivien's birthday!!! she helped me a lot so i wanted it to be a surprise. too bad, she was too observant x( and i was too easy to see observe.
and i was just wondering if there was a even more blurr person than me in this world cause she didn't even ask when she saw me doing ' something' ( poking candles and panic-ing when i realise there is a missing candle on a chair opposite her) in front of her.
anyway, happy birthday!! remember to open all the wishing stars, kay? :)
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13th March
saw lots of people in the open day. wonder if i'll be seeing any of them soon here? it'll be fun!
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18th March
found this really exciting blog. credits to eva.
and changed the blog skin! credits to eva too!
go here >>>> Yasmine
don't be impressed. the link above to allow you readers ( if any ...x.x ) to go to her blog, is also help from eva.
ps. i'll never understand weired codings. computer illiterate aleart!!! x.x
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wish me luck! important-must-pass-or-else-have-to-pay-rm300-per-paper tmr!!!! pray for me... seriously ==
it's my last T1 and T2 exam tmr ( hopefully ) .... let me pass... please? * hopeful look*
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
past events~
last Wednesday
i wore secondary school's white t-shirt to college. as it would be weired to pair it with my usual jeans, i had to wear a skirt with it. it was my first time wearing a skirt to college.
why did i do that? lol, cause i promised eva i'll wear the white uniform if she wore it too.
so, with a school uniform, i obviously invited stares. especially ivy.
ivy: .......*stares*
me: er, yes? * while continue walking to the lobby*
ivy: is that....
me: this? *tugs shirt* yup! it's my white school uniform i wore to school!
ivy: omg, really? i thought i looked familiar but i wasn't sure!
me: haha...... *akwardnesss*
back at class..........
michell, angle.....: *mumbles mumbles and stare*
me: * continue walking to find a nice seat*
michell: cL!
me: huh? *turns to face her*
michell: are you wearing the school uniform arh?
me: uh huh, yeah?
michell: oh.. * turns to angel and continue mumbling*
that's how weired it is. so i thought......
then, eva came in.
she was wearing the same white shirt, smaller in size, a sweater and a extremely SHORT mini skirt.o short in fact, that she HAD to wear a pair of tights underneath. ( i tell you, she looked REALLY HOT in that. which in turn makes me look sloppy )
oh yeah, so she won the attention and the wolf whistles that day. x.x but i think she did not want as many attention as she obtain that day xP ( this is PURELY a comment, not due to jealousy or what-so-ever )
that night, went out for dinner with amy, ying, nana, loon, teoh, and wai kit. had 'lou sang' and simple dishes at sri petaling.
as the guys left the table to go 'the store', a fight took place.
this drunk guy ( he couldn't even stand properly ) was speaking some unknown language and took out his fist to hit another guy at a table just next to ours. but before he hit, he half fall on the floor, so his opponent ( the guy that was about to get hit ) had to pull him up instead of defending himself.
at that point of time, they were preety close to us already, but we were too shocked to do anything. then, the drunk guy who got helped got pissed off for being helped. he tried to push his opponent away and slam his hand on our table for support.
instinctively, all 4 of us girls practically left our seats and ran as far off as possible, clinging to one another. it wasn't too far either as all the other tables have left their tables too. i scarcely remember amy saying something to us, but i was in too much shock to take it in.
then, the drunk guy laid his eyes on the same thing i suddenly remembered we left on the table.
amy's bottle of red wine.
before any of us could do anything, the drunk guy grabbed the 3 quarters full bottle of wine a tried to throw it at his opponent.
being drunk, he missed. leaving a big pool of red wine on the tar road.
then, another person came over, tried to calm the guy, and lead him away.
the 4 of us were then left there shocked with a bottle of shattered wine.
.......i think the boss felt guilty about it, but asked for full payment ANYWAY. and the guys? useless bunch of guys disbelief us about the fight and teased us until the staffs told loon that there WAS a fight.
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last Thursday,
went last minute shopping at mega mendung with mom.
met quek outside maybank, and zhi seng at central.
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last friday n Saturday,
left over spring cleaning and dinner and granma's house. won RM 2 during black jack.
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last sunday,
Ang pao!!!! Ang Pao, Ang pao, Ang Pao, Ang pao, Ang Pao, Ang pao, Ang Pao, Ang pao!!!!!!!
:)
watched new moon with cousins. i won rm3. dad lost, rm45 =.= ...... told his to stop betting...
PS, one of my cousins actually brought chess to play with me but i didn't realize as i was too busy with cards. :( And he did not even whine about it. Nice guy.... :)
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monday
ang paos, food, cards and chess :)
ps, won rm27 ~^^
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today,
bake, fail.
blog,
facebook,
KFC
and now, preparing to sleep.
nitez, people!
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cL here, signing off
Boriiiiing
went facebook again just now. after 'happy farming', played 'vampire' then go looking up for any new pics uploaded by friends......
you know what's this called? LIFELESS
it's soooo boring.... please, i NEED a LIFE
i dont wanna stick to the comp every free time i got that i dont feel like sleeping. i want to be busy, to be busy planning events for people i care, to be busy on outings with friends or family members, to be busy chatting up with people instead of staring at a certain something, feel like commenting on it but think that it will not be appropriate since i do not know the person as well as i hope to.
it's chinese new year, for goodness sake, it's like my ONLY break of the semester. weired why i wouldn't want to spent my well-deserved-break sleeping huh? i've no idea.
anyway, curious why i'm emo?
simple, i did baking today. ( THAT probably explains itself already )
..................
FINE, so i baked another bunch of disfigured cookies ( it's not my fault! stupid CENTRAL doesn't have cold enough air-con to keep the mini kisses in pieces! it was all melted and stuck together when i brought it home... ), so what? it's my specialty! i mean, who else can bake more disfigured cookies that i can? *wink*
hmmm, maybe i should set up my own bran ;x .....
how does ''famous cl disfigured cookies' sound? :D it's not really meant for or eating ( unless the person thinks disfigured cookies are a better way to get a a bad tummy and get a MC than flu ) , it's just a motivation for other failed bakers and a moto for people who dont bake to get started. because, 'famous cl disfigured cookie' balieves that ANYBODY can bake :)
oh, i STILL need a life. outing anyone? ;)
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
outings!!!
hmmm, lets see.
outing on sunday with, hui ming, hui li, ji xian and kah keong. primary class mates!
it was supposed to be hui ming's birthday on monday, but i asked to have an outing on sunday. so we did! i baked something-that-looks-like-a-chocolate-cake for her!
everything was pretty weired.
we watched haunted university, and went gaming. then, we went to red box.
it was supposed to be a surprise. the cake and everything..... but she was having a fever and was so quiet. the whole thing was pretty weired in the end as me and hui li accompanied her while waiting for her dad.
she is such an innocent, sweet girl. so innocent in fact, that i feel bad.
anyway, next time, i think i'll bring her for movies. ( she didn't even BLINK throughout the movie! )
Outing with Po Chi and Wan Qi
happy birthday Po Chi!
i wanted to bake a similiar cake for po chi, but i thought of how delicate her family's stomach might be and canceled the thought. ==
so instead, i bought a mini mud cake from ZEN!
i really enjoyed it when we just walk around, chatting, nibbling and telling tales. it was fun :)
though i have to also mention it wasn't perfect as i was, in a way, 'black listed' =.= that part, not fun. ( sorry~x.x )
oh, and to do a little promoting, 'timeless penang' searves really great asam laksa. go try it!
Outing with course-mates ;)
classes on friday ends early. at 12.30pm, so.....
OUTING!!! to pyramid!
17 of us took of by different means of transport. 4 cars, and a few who love their legs too much, preferred to walk.
went there, met at Starbucks, buy tickets for 15 students and a COUPLE *ngek ngek ngek* for the show, 'tooth fairy'!
then, we rushed to mcD to pack value meal ( preparing to smuggle in xP ) and rushed upstairs. the movie starts in 15 minutes.
after everyone was there, we went in, being 15 minutes late.
in the darkness, we had difficulties finding our seats....suddenly...
SPOTTED!!! middle row of chairs all empty for 12 to sit.
THAT's US!!! how convenient.
anyway, the show was funny. lol.
went to ZEN after a LONG making decision time. snapped plenty of photo's and went home. ( check out the photo's in my facebook!)
:)
nice day.....
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sleepy CL here, signing off *yawn*
college life 2
.....sleepy
wanna hear my routine?
i wake up at 5.50am
catch the 6.30am sunway bus at sri petaling LRT station
sleep in bus for an hour
go for 8 or 8.30 classes
go out for lunch with friends
continue classes
try NOT to nod off in class and make sense of whats going on
end classes at 5pm
get on the 5.30pm bus
sleep my hour on the bus
reach LRT station
get somebody to pick me up
(i mean it, it's so tough getting somebody to pick me up! example...
me: *beep beeeep beeeep*
dad: hello? you at LRT already?
me: yup, can you pick me?
dad: i'm busy now, get your brother to pick you up. slam! *ends call*
me: ........
me:*beep beeeep beeep...... beeeeep beeeeeeeeeeeeeep*
bro: what? *annoyed*
me: er, gor arh, can pick me up or not?
bro: WHAT? why every time also i pick you up one? i driver arh? i'm not even paid! *mad*
me:yea yea yeah i know...... *pause* so can you pick me?
bro: *irritated* go and ask mom lah! duuuuuuutttt *ends call*
me: *beeep beeeeep beeeeep* hello? mummy arh?
mom:i busy now la, you wait until 6.35pm first
me: huh? .....orh
mom: duuut *ends call*
....................
ring ring *handphone rings*
me: hello?
mom: i ask gor to pick you up.
me: orh, ok....*beeeeep* *ends call*
see how tough it is? i even have to listen when my brother grumbles about picking me up on the car.... )
reach home at 7.15pm
dinner
TV
homework
sleep
..........
daily routine. tiring? definitely. worth it? i have no idea. but whatever it is, i'm NOT giving up. i spend too much time and effort already. not to mention the bi-weekly internal exams that you almost MUST pass.....
Dude, i'm gonna GET my ACCA. >:) plus, the people here are fun :D and doesn't find my hyper-activeness weired xP ( or maybe they do?)
oh, and i get to go interview mr.TEOH, founder of Sunway-TES, this thursday. wish me luck!
PS, i get to create stuff here! i officially made tomorrow ' miss-your-secondary-school-life-day' so, everybody got to wear club or school or class t-shirts! isn't it cool? :D
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
College
...wow
i went to sunway yesterday, expecting to register for CAT classes on 18th Jan which was said by lecturers of sunway at a education fair to be a better option as the other January intake CAT classes had started.
today, i'm blogging using the computers provided in sunway.
What the..?
it was all so sudden. when i went to register, they( business-minded people in charge of registration who gave me the papers given out during orientation cause the orientation is over left me all blurrr [ cant talk bad about sunway xP since i'm happily using the facilities now AND it's against the rule o.o ] ) told me they cant open a new class cause the 4 current classes are not full.
meaning....
i bump into a class-full of students as a late-comer-alien-who was-not-at-the-orientation.
NOT my style. or maybe it is? ;)
anyway, when i reached the class, i hesitated. am i in the right class? only way, *knock* *knock* '' erm...excuse me? is this the class for group 3? *smiles a hopefully friendly looking smile*"
"erm, yeah."
"thanks"
....thank godness the students are all pretty friendly and not selfish idiots. :D not that i managed to have a chance to talk to ALL the people :( oh well, it's a start^^ at least i think they all look pretty friendly.
oopss, sunway are out of the text books i need. Cant be helped, since i'm a LATE comer. oh oh, and something else very unlucky happened to me, but it's nothing major....if i keep my cool ;) (hope nobody notice this though)
scheduals( is that how you spell it) are PACKED >.< (gaaaahhh, less shopping and haging out time.... NOOoooo)
so....sorry people, if i promised to go out with you and cant make time. ( i even had to cancel my undang test to attend classes :'( there goes my RM40 )
another thing...
anybody going sunway who stays in OUG? i'm in transportation problem. some of the classes ends at 6.15pm and i'm left stranded here. ( well, not yet. but i will if i dont find a solution by 20th x.x ) erm, i'll pay for the tol fees and car park? :D ( oh, the car parks here, have surcurity cameras and autopay machine...how cool is that? for a college. or am i out-dated? oh well...)
reminder to self...
1. bring a huge sweater next time ( it's freezing i tell you, my fingers are literally frozen! )
2. bring a calculator ( what student in finance course will NOT think of bringing a calculator to classes? don't guess, it's me x.x )
3. Hurry up and deal with all the student cards! (it's such a bother being independant. but the feeeling and sense of accomplishment rocks)
4. speaking of independent, gotta go get notes for lecturers on missed classes! ( if i want to pass the mini exam on friday x.x )
that's it!
the begining of a fantastic start! watch me grow, and be fascinated! ( or you can be jealous if you want, lol, not that i recommend it though)
cL here, signing off ;) *wink*
i went to sunway yesterday, expecting to register for CAT classes on 18th Jan which was said by lecturers of sunway at a education fair to be a better option as the other January intake CAT classes had started.
today, i'm blogging using the computers provided in sunway.
What the..?
it was all so sudden. when i went to register, they( business-minded people in charge of registration who gave me the papers given out during orientation cause the orientation is over left me all blurrr [ cant talk bad about sunway xP since i'm happily using the facilities now AND it's against the rule o.o ] ) told me they cant open a new class cause the 4 current classes are not full.
meaning....
i bump into a class-full of students as a late-comer-alien-who was-not-at-the-orientation.
NOT my style. or maybe it is? ;)
anyway, when i reached the class, i hesitated. am i in the right class? only way, *knock* *knock* '' erm...excuse me? is this the class for group 3? *smiles a hopefully friendly looking smile*"
"erm, yeah."
"thanks"
....thank godness the students are all pretty friendly and not selfish idiots. :D not that i managed to have a chance to talk to ALL the people :( oh well, it's a start^^ at least i think they all look pretty friendly.
oopss, sunway are out of the text books i need. Cant be helped, since i'm a LATE comer. oh oh, and something else very unlucky happened to me, but it's nothing major....if i keep my cool ;) (hope nobody notice this though)
scheduals( is that how you spell it) are PACKED >.< (gaaaahhh, less shopping and haging out time.... NOOoooo)
so....sorry people, if i promised to go out with you and cant make time. ( i even had to cancel my undang test to attend classes :'( there goes my RM40 )
another thing...
anybody going sunway who stays in OUG? i'm in transportation problem. some of the classes ends at 6.15pm and i'm left stranded here. ( well, not yet. but i will if i dont find a solution by 20th x.x ) erm, i'll pay for the tol fees and car park? :D ( oh, the car parks here, have surcurity cameras and autopay machine...how cool is that? for a college. or am i out-dated? oh well...)
reminder to self...
1. bring a huge sweater next time ( it's freezing i tell you, my fingers are literally frozen! )
2. bring a calculator ( what student in finance course will NOT think of bringing a calculator to classes? don't guess, it's me x.x )
3. Hurry up and deal with all the student cards! (it's such a bother being independant. but the feeeling and sense of accomplishment rocks)
4. speaking of independent, gotta go get notes for lecturers on missed classes! ( if i want to pass the mini exam on friday x.x )
that's it!
the begining of a fantastic start! watch me grow, and be fascinated! ( or you can be jealous if you want, lol, not that i recommend it though)
cL here, signing off ;) *wink*
Friday, January 8, 2010
i was watching a scandle video of a couple kissing in school on facebook just now. as i was watching it, i thought of how embarassing the couple in the video would be in the future. in my opinion, when such videos are ever released to public, it can NEVER be retrived. domebody, somewhere would definately have watched this particular video.
Example: remember the video, negarakuku? which caused quite a commotion for sometime and made it to the headlines? it was removed immediately when the goverment demanded it to be. out of curiosity, i typed ' negarakuku' on youtube few months after the scandle. sure enough, there were videos of it the clip. only difference is that it wasn't as clear.
isn't it a wonder how much harm the internet, something almost everybody uses daily can cause?
~is it human nature for us to love scandle? yet, nobody ever wants to be involved being the characters IN the scandle. we just like to watch and comment....i guess that's what you call guilty pleasure.
yeah right, blame your guilty pleasure on human nature -.- bah, who cares, bet everyone knows and noticed this fact already.
Example: remember the video, negarakuku? which caused quite a commotion for sometime and made it to the headlines? it was removed immediately when the goverment demanded it to be. out of curiosity, i typed ' negarakuku' on youtube few months after the scandle. sure enough, there were videos of it the clip. only difference is that it wasn't as clear.
isn't it a wonder how much harm the internet, something almost everybody uses daily can cause?
~is it human nature for us to love scandle? yet, nobody ever wants to be involved being the characters IN the scandle. we just like to watch and comment....i guess that's what you call guilty pleasure.
yeah right, blame your guilty pleasure on human nature -.- bah, who cares, bet everyone knows and noticed this fact already.
Thursday, January 7, 2010
KBSW
quick, 30 minutes more before my mom's laptop goes out of battery. >.<
new fascination. KBSW, Astro 303. wen li has been bugging me to check it out ages ago. never bothered x) not much of a korean fan.( sorry girls! :( and boys for this matter. i still cant tell the member apart from each other. [ all the skinny pretty girls in SNSD kinda look the same to me] ) but mind you, i do like certain korean song and there was quite a number of video clips on youtube on korean game shows that made me rewatch several time.
go youtube and type:
super juniour genie star dance battle
and laugh you heads off. ;D you can check out other pretty cool video's from there. ( yes, i'm too lazy to type them all out so, go do your own reserch on funny videos! ^^ time flies )
you know what's the other easy way out?
find somebody who loves korean entertainment, be it kpop or game shows and visit thier blog! ( that's what i always do x) *evil laughter* easy way out for LAZY people) example.... click the name ELAINE at the links of my blog to visit an active blogger who happens to be a kpop fan! ( i'm doing advertising for you elaine ^^ i know i'm welcomed :) )
she'll be one happy girl to have other people discussing her favorite kpop band with her. ( obviously SNSD, you'll be blind if you visited her blog and NOT know it )
anyway, KBSW has quite a numder of really entertaining drama's and game show. check it out if you're bored and your favorite shows aren't on air.
~enjoy your remaining holidays when you can :]
new fascination. KBSW, Astro 303. wen li has been bugging me to check it out ages ago. never bothered x) not much of a korean fan.( sorry girls! :( and boys for this matter. i still cant tell the member apart from each other. [ all the skinny pretty girls in SNSD kinda look the same to me] ) but mind you, i do like certain korean song and there was quite a number of video clips on youtube on korean game shows that made me rewatch several time.
go youtube and type:
super juniour genie star dance battle
and laugh you heads off. ;D you can check out other pretty cool video's from there. ( yes, i'm too lazy to type them all out so, go do your own reserch on funny videos! ^^ time flies )
you know what's the other easy way out?
find somebody who loves korean entertainment, be it kpop or game shows and visit thier blog! ( that's what i always do x) *evil laughter* easy way out for LAZY people) example.... click the name ELAINE at the links of my blog to visit an active blogger who happens to be a kpop fan! ( i'm doing advertising for you elaine ^^ i know i'm welcomed :) )
she'll be one happy girl to have other people discussing her favorite kpop band with her. ( obviously SNSD, you'll be blind if you visited her blog and NOT know it )
anyway, KBSW has quite a numder of really entertaining drama's and game show. check it out if you're bored and your favorite shows aren't on air.
~enjoy your remaining holidays when you can :]
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
=.=
today is tuesday...votings are officially closed with a fair amount of votes each! zero, in this case....-.- apparently, this blog is almost dead. so, ask me in person if you're interested in future. i'm too depressed over the results to blog now. lol.
PS. college starts soon. wish me luck! ;D
PPS. who's working where? i'd love to see my schoolmates working!
PPPS. any gossips people? i'm interested. nah, just joking
Sunday, January 3, 2010
randomness~
it's been ages since i last blogged, so lets see....
1. the 6d4n camp i took part in which happens to collide with my 17th birthday
2. the surprise party by my primary school classmates
3. the search for the suitable pre-U course and college to go for
4. the outing with my brother/ Amy and Ying
5. karaoke session after spm, lol
6. pretty emo outing on new year's eve
or
7. after spm ( which pretty sums up 1 to 6 )
take a pick!
vote (in the chatbox) for the one you are most interested in ( dontpicksavendontpicksevendontpickseven) and i'll post it! (if anybody still bothers to visit a abandoned going to be shattered and probably haunted blog x.x )
voting period closes on TUESDAY. xP
New Year's Eve
31st of December 2009 was my worst new year's eve ever. i spent my last few minutes of 2009 walking on the side of a road. when the fireworks went off, i could only stare and exclaim. it was beautiful. that was probably my greatest moment of the night.
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gosh, now i'm damn emo. and i have to get up at 6.30 for undang classes tmr!!!! >.<
p.s i still feel extremly sorry to the innocent-did-not-even-see-his-face-stranger guy i kicked on accident when i was flaring up that morning. he must have been cursing me for a bad start to a new year, lol.
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