REVIVE~!!!

isotonic :P

anyway, since i am left stranded in college today, i had time to do a lot of reviving. example, my blog and a long forgotten place, frienster.

sounds like a real strange wort now, doesn't it. but if you could remember, msn and frienster were only as common as facebook was when we were in secondary.

so what happened?
1. facebook came
2. facebook ruled
3. facebook was more fun
4. frienster was damn outdated

it took me a while to recall my password. when i logged it, it seem like a whole new world. the picture that looked back at me in the display pic was so.. weird. i dont know, it just, dosn't feel like me, ya know?

the picture were so kiddish, so 'act cute', so childish. it was like from another dimension. my features didn't change much, but the way i try to look cute in front of the camera lens, is enough to send shivers down my spine.

and there it was, an album title that once made me feel warm n snugly. i cant believe what happened to it. i cant believe how much tears and heart break it caused...no, actually, i can believe how much tears and heart break it'll cause.

i knew it the minute i decided i want them to be my buddies.

i knew it the minute we promised we'll make each other our brides maid on our wedding day.

i knew it when we started sharing a diary.

i knew it when we made fun of each other and i still wanted to be friends even though they do not understand me and often hide at home crying at what they thought were jokes but i didn't.

but i did not know we'll ever have this situation.

i didn't know things will turn out this way.

i didn't know the bbq party we were having together will be our last.

i didn't know the whipped cream fight we had at every birthday will come to an end.

i didn't know we would never have any more sleep overs.

i didn't know the first baked cheese cake she ever baked for her, will also be the last.

i didn't know we'll never have chance to cam whore like crazy till we didn't have time to do anything else.

i didn't know i'll one day stare at these pictures and type a sad bog post about it.

....

now,

how am i gonna get 4 people who laughed at me and yet try to teach me to play mah jong for new year?

how am i gonna get that baked cheese cake you promised to bake for me?

how am i gonna have the chance to ever tell you guys, how very much i love you guys..


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why am i always typing about sad stuff? that people i care for are going away?

dont blame me for fighting on maintain-ing this relationship. i care and want it back too much to bother about your opinion on this.

i don't believe we'll end like this