Tuesday, November 17, 2009

SPM bluess~~

it's officially 23 hours to spm but i'm still stuck with the past on every detail of my last day i school on the 13th of November 2009......

good luck everyone!

Sunday, September 20, 2009

retirement

lol, i sound like a 55 year-old old lady. anyway, yesterday was my retirement as ajk PRS. it was rather emotional, at least for me, near the end of the event. but i managed to blink it away. i had plenty i wanted to tell during my speech, but i was lost for words. kinda regret it. i had so many people i wanted to thank, so many things i want to tell, but it never came out. i wonder if anybody will ever know how much i wanted to tell?

yesterday, was a slight disappointment. i expected only a small amount of members to turn up, but i was shocked to see only a few. even the group of form 3 boys who has always been rather active left halfway through the event....i guess the form 4's shared our disappointment. what happened to our club? where are the active members we used to have? have they left the club? is it the fact that activities aren't as fun anymore? or is it just how people don't like getting involved in what-seems-boring-but-not-necessary-is anymore?

anyway, i guess i just can't share cheng li's joy of ''i'm finally FREE!!!!'' it didn't felt like the end, it felt like the beginning of many more disappointments and good-byes.

i really truly hope the next batch of you do well. especially you, lim wai pheng, my successor... (did i spell your name right? x.x)

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oh, on Friday i went out with becca, hui li, and wan qi. my mom actually said no, but later said yes. so i met up with them after the movie.

shucks, missed the movie, i actually thought we were going for 3 movies? bah...

wooohooooo~~~

i rock, i seriously rock, i seriously ultimately rock


i fixed my blog!!!! xD (it's a big deal ok?) and i have no idea how i did it. x.x i was getting all frustrated for not being able to fix it for the past 1 hour, i couldn't remember what i clicked. suddenly, the layout came back!

my chat box is back, my links are back.....;D

oh, and as they were all recovering, i noticed something.....screw....i only posted 5 post the whole of this year???

wow....that's something i have to work on...together with my studies T.T

Thursday, September 17, 2009

trials are OVER!!!!

pop the champagne! dig out those packs of unwatched DVD's! keep the books!! trial's over!!!!! xD since the kementrian just announced school holiday on Friday, that means, for students who doesn't take accounts or arts( memememememe) its a 11 days straight holiday! :D

have lots of planning the these 11 days, but since i'm such a good girl, i'm going to school tomorrow. to accompany WanQi, AND make plannings ;D

i wanna watch G-Force! (the hamsters are hard-to-resist' ing ly cute!!!)

and UP (balloons!!!)

and ORPHAN~~~ haha, this will probably the first and last time u hear me excited about watching horror movie x.x

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oh, i'm retiring this Saturday......19th of September.... :'(

from saturday onwards, i will no longer be able to wear my gold tag....will DEFINITELY miss the proud, confident feeling i have when i wear it.

i always wonder if any other ajk's feel what i feel as an ajk. to value your post, to try your best, to try to do all you can? sometimes, when things get rough, complains start piling. then a slight feeling of guilt kind of crawls through, i sometimes think i don't do enough to be worth my post (especially when i'm talking to Cheng Li x( ). and then, there are times, when i feel so over-worked that i feel like i should just give this whole thing up and later becomes all teary that i should think like that. it's a love hate relationship x) but i love it 90 percent more that i hate it.

the best part? to be able to have so many people respect you in some weird way and to know that you are able to MAKE significant changes. so it rather upsets me when i KNOW that there is nothing i can do about somethings. among them, the news about a few members quitting. it was terrible, i was depressed about it for quite some time, tried talking to them, but to no avail.

the worst part? when people thinks, say or hint that this post i am holding has nothing to do. to those who did less things than me, i somehow wonder if you even have the right to say such things. to those who did more than me, well, then it must have been my fault that i couldn't help you enough, so....sincere apologies here. ( i would have preferred to say it 1 on 1, but it'll be weird if a 'sorry' pops out of nowhere. )

so, if i don't get a speech on Saturday, ( hint hint xP ) i want to say that i was generally happy and grateful about this post, even if nobody bothers whether i am or not. i especially treasure our moments in Pangkor :) ( was not because i nearly drowned, ok?) , and the interactions during meetings, kursus tahunan, pameran and others. pameran especially, since it was so stressful. ( was busy the whole time i didn't even had time to explore other clubs! =[ ) was, and still is so glad we got champion :)

this year passed a bit too fast....

to our successors, keep the tradition alive, do the booking early, get all the reports and minutes done on time, do planning, stay as a team and WIN the pameran next year, make it a 5 YEARS STRAIGHT WIN!!

if there's anything i can help, sent me a mail, a text, a ring x) i'll do all i can.


once a prs, always a prs. PRS ROCKS!!!!


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Hui Li called me up last Sunday afternoon, she told me one of the teachers called to ask her to ask me if i wanted to become a counselor, for a year-end, 5 days 4 night Dharma camp. i was so excited, i said yes before she told me the details. i was rather shocked rather, that the teacher ( whom thought me when i was still in primary school and went for Sunday classes ) actually asked me, who is as good as an outsider. ( although my part of the job is probably going to be a very easy one ) i went for the youth camps conducted by this temple for a few time, it was fun. after that, if i went to the temple again, i always felt guilty, embarrass, and blame my poor memory every time somebody says 'hi' to me and i either do not recognize them or do not remember their name. x.x

anyway, i said yes, and was determined to be able to recognize these people if i ever saw them again. ( you can't imagine the embarrassment when somebody tells you your team member who happens to be in the same school tries to greet you for a whole year and apparently, you have never noticed this...) then when she told me, the camp is from 18th to 22nd of December.....what?! and then my part of the line went silent for some time, full with flash backs of past experience of spending that special day at camps and the shattering sound of all my plans. suddenly, joining the camp as a counselor does not sound very tempting. but, part of me wanted it very bad, so i said i'll just have to change my plans.

too bad Amy, u missed the chance to help celebrate my birthday on the actual day....again

wonder if you guys will have planned it better this year, or even remembered?

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anyway, trials were terrible, they make you stay up late. i even had a 27 hour no sleep at all experience! too bad i still think i did terrible, maybe cause i did?

wish me luck when i get my papers.

PS, i think Becca should have got higher marks then me in the english essay, i think mine was boringly long winded.

PPS, still find it fascinating how the tips actually bocor'ed?

PPPS, hamsters are seriously cute

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

oopppsss....

random title, lol

so here i am, blogging on a Wednesday morning 1 day before exam when everybody else is at school or studying their heads off.....wow, typical example of a naughty girl xD

it's been 3 months since i last blogged, kinda missed it, unexpectedly. still have trouble fixing my blog, my links are all gone, so is my chat box....why? well, guess that's what happen when a smart-allec computer illiterate tries to use some really cute backgrounds from blog-skin. it ended in a total mess, i was so worried i lost my whole blog....phew...

back to the main point....what's with my life?(i guess that's why people read blog? to know about other's life?)

well, have been kinda emo lately, no idea why. just suddenly feel emo for no good reason. i guess it happens, when a friend is upset, or you get frustrated, or maybe found out you were cheated? i just cant be who i WAS anymore, the girl who would just cry in the bathroom with the shower on so nobody heard her. ocasionally, i still do that, but now, i found that sleeping is a GREAT way to get rid off emo-ness!! ( unless you were awaken by people screaming at you to do stuff, then the sleeping idea kinda back-fires) i wonder if it's a healthier change? to release it, or to forget it?

went to school on saturday, for fun. for a change, i found it nice. an empty bus, with the wind blowing straight in ur face, a quiet school with just enough students. an half empty class, to chat about. and a whole lot of place to play volley ball. there was no pressure.....school without pressure is great, with buddies and games and no homework.

oh oh, and i started writting again!! hope i don't get anymore battle scenes, my last battle scene took me a year =.= and we got a new character!!! will post when the whole story is done. btw, the story's in Chinese.

also, i took the personality and career test. haha, they were so accurate!!( i'm orange btw, which is the kind of person who love challenges, thinks life is a game, messy, and can't bear to be stuck in 1 place, sociable. wanqi is gold. neat, quiet, decent, follow rule...in other words, good girl type. TYPICAL!!!) i basically have a job option in mind, but am now in doubt again. kinda quarreled with my mom for 3 days over this.

ending this post, mom's gonna come home, she'll scream to see me online xD any comments, tell me in school, my chatbox is gonna take some time to recover >.>

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to random person,

if you feel emo now, go to sleep! it helps.

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to other computer illeterates like me,

if you want to experiment on something with the computer that involves something as important as ur blog.....2 options.

1. don't do it
2. get someone to help you, or
3. prepare to get unexpected results xD

just a pointer, no offence~

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to me,

STUDYYYY!!!!!! chinese tmr!!!

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and again, thanks for reading my blog, =D it'll be quite a while till my next post. T.T

so long, ciao~~

Friday, May 1, 2009

emo day

i'm back!!!! to save my blog from being further criticized by some human who complain that it's dead. it's not dead, NOT, so stop it, you're hurting IT =.=

anyway, since i'm blogging EARLY in the MORNING cause i was sleeping for....what? 5 hours in the afternoon? oh, and brother wants to claim credit for staying up awake with me. i was thinking, maybe i should update some stuff, like what happened during kursus asas PRS, PRS race( more or less like a less expensive version of 'the amazing race'), current life and the STRESS!!! gosh, with all those intervensi papers and diagnostic......what, are exams made to make student's suffer? cause they did a GREAT job.

firstly, about my curent life. what can i say? it's sort of unbelievable....not really in a good way....somehow, everything just suddenly piles up....i just can't believe how selfish people can be, expecially if it's a close friend whom you know ou'll never let go and continue believing in no matter how many times they unintentionally hurt you.

you know what, i just don't get it, i thought since young we were thought to treat people the way we want to be treated...so why am i scolded for no reason just by being caring? just by being what i think a good friend will do, i got scolded. and when i voice it out, what do people say? they say i shouldn't be caring and basically just shut my mouth. what else did i miss, oh yeah, i was also told that i should come to school every morning and give everybody a moody face. why? apparently, my happy, cherry, positive smile i hang on my face in the morning drives sleepy, not-fully-awake people mad.

so how would you feel my dear readers? when everything you try to do right i being turned up-side down? every morning when you come to school, full of hope, eager to meet your friends, you are greeted by moody faces who turn thier backs at you or scowl at you?

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ugghh, enough of all the emo stuff, sounds so not like me, which is why i found a great solution to cure emo-ness....sleep!!! ( works only for forgetful people and people who don't remember people's faults easily ) 5 hours later, you will probably forgotten why are you spending so much time on these kind of stuff and immediately forgive them....partly...and continue with your life.

now, for the more happy part!!!
PRS race!!! which was held last last saturday. li pheng and i were station masters at the mamak stall near the school. oh, and we had...worms.....big, fat, juicy, disgusting worms...*ngek ngek* too bad the pics are not with me, but when i learn how to get my chatbox, and how to load pictures here, i'll load them. =D

haha, the poor juniors sure had a tough time serching through the drains for pieces of paper while singing song, which puts 'twinkle twinkle little star' on the TOP of the list as the most popular song to be sang by all group members. *clap clap clap*

next up, kursus asas PRS. it's usually held later but we pushed it forward this year and had it last saturday. the attendance was a bit of a dissapointment but it was fun!! ( hey, when i check the paper later, i'm gonna strangle anybody who dares leave even 1 section of te pyramid blank, you understand? ) lol, kar men, thum and me were showing off our 'sunkist' tarik skills to pour all the left overs into bottles.

the exams were wacky, gosh, did they really study? but hey, no worries, if you're so worried about your test results, make sure your attendence is great and stay active, you'll be save ^^ the counselling part turned out to be more of a joke than anything else. what can i say, my acting sucks =P i heard kai li pretended to be a pregnant lady who was VERY emotional, lol, suits her so much!!!! right, jennice?

and that kinda concludes my current status, still me and am ready to face the world =D ...( by world, it doesn't include secnod term exams )


till then, liNg

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

recent events

really really busy these days, have tons of post in draft waiting to be completed

anyway, here are the more memorable events that happened recently.

1. 13th march
exams over!!! haha, can finally watch Animes without limit!!! yeah!!! wait up bleach movies 1 n 2 ( which rocks btw, but i personally prefer the second), ouran high school host club, god save, library wars and probably alice accademy andvampire knight too......gah!!!! anime SERIOUSLY rocks!!!!!

oh yeah, btw, to those who went to kuantan, have FUN!!!!

2. 19th march
Pre-april fool. i actually invited wan qi to go pasar malam together today but she rejected. so i went with my brother. bought tau fu fa and milk tea. went home and watch tv. and guess who called? an unknown number. i picked up and to my surprise it was a classmate in school. then he asked me who i was. i was dumbstruct and immediately asked him if he was being fooled around. i mean, who will call somebody they don't know unless it's a prank, right? then even before knowing who i am, he continued asking if i wanted to go sunway the next day. it was then that i heard sze wei and alot of other people laughing and EVERYTHING fit in. pity him and screw you guys!!! why am I the victim?? not that i was fooled but why me??? which was why i did not answer ANY of his questions untill he abruptly hung up. ( i totally forgot about this till i read elaine's blog. which is totally UNTRUE!!! ) and i went to sleep. the end.

3. 20th-21th march
i am a pure KL girl. 100 percent to the core. but i seriously don't know KL, the buildings and everything? dont ask me, i've only been the time square 3 times!! and the first 2 times i went there? i didn't even know it was time square =.=

anyway, i told my dad, ''hey, dy (short for daddy), when can you bring me to tour KL? i want to go bukit bintang and see the night view." and god knows, 2 weeks later during dinner, he announced that we will be staying in Sharaton hotel for a 2days 1 night stay during the march holidays.

am i happy? of course i am, but it's such a weired thing to do.( btw, this is NOT the first time our family is doing this kind of thing) you want any souveniers? Get them yourself!! it's KL!! LOL.

so i went shoping with my mom( the boys prefered staying in the hotel room watching tv), which was kinda fun, too bad she was too tired from her work. i bought a jacket which i liked, with my OWN pocket money my dad gave in advance T.T which means i'll be broke next month!!!

the room was nice, the bed was huge and they had feather pillows!!! 8 pillows all together!!! and i love the bathroom, spacious. but what really took the cake was the window. there was a place to sit there for you to enjoy the night view!!! just my type. ( though it's mainly night clubs)

and we had dinner in the really expensive chinese hotel restorant, in which i excidentally ordered a ten dollars per head premium chinese tea. and i dont even know the difference between premium tea and normal cheap tea( which is also expensive....five dollars per head)!! the worst thing is that except for the really quiet and high-class looking envioroment, it's no big deal. ( no offence to the chefs btw. erm, the pecking duck was nice?)

4. 25th march
one of my sista's birthday, ally!! happy sweet 17!! sorry i cant celebrate for you after school though. lol, i didn't manage to see her expression too when she opened her locker to see the chocolate, birthday cards and rose petals filled locker. must have been priceless.

5. 28th march
merentas desa day and earth day. i went you know, such a good girl. though i was cursing most of my classmates and amy for dumping my way back. my stamina's bad, i know!! don't bully me!!! but wanqi was really nice and waited for me though i asked her to run off first without me =( on the other hand, amy kept dashoing off every time i was close! i met po chi on the way who sat resting cause she felt dizzy and walked the last part back with her. lol, first time reach so late untill there was no more water from pandu girls. went to KFC after that with po chi, jingqi and lee xian for breakfast and a long girl chat.

after dinner, went pasar malam, and switched off all the lights!! almost the whole pf my whole neighbourhood switched off thier lights!!! it felt so warm to know that people cared for this world. my conclusion? educated and civalised people are people who care and switch off thier lights, unless they have no idea about this whole thing of course, which is almost impossible.

my younger brother had a fun time playing with the torch light and my mom took the no computer time an opportunity to talk to us about our future. so like her. i saw some families took chairs out for family talk too in the dark....that night, even the street lights were brighter than usual...hopefully filling our earth with more hope for the future.

6. April fool!!!
crazy event, 2 boys in my class was betting each other to eat crickets!!! what the heck is wrong with them? crazy or what? one of them even said it was 'biscuits' he was eating, not crickets =.= but it really got the class heated up since it was a relief period. though some of the girls were making it too much of a fuss......okay, maybe i DID make SOME fuss but at least i wasn't TOO noisy.....other than that, nothing much happened

7. 2nd April
kai yan's birthday today!!! wanqi brought a birthday card and i helped passed it around. happy birthday!! may all your dreams come true!!!

8. 3rd April
school was so boring today. no classes and the class was empty. everbody was busy with raptai hari sukan......oh well, i'm sure it's fun for those of you who took part so, gambateh and do your best!!!!

9. 4th April
actual sports day today but i didn't go. must have been cursed by becca cause not going to midvalley with her to watch the confessions of a shoppaholic after that.

that about it. till then....

Friday, January 2, 2009

another failure

you know, seeing others fail are always easier than failing something yourself. you might think you know how the person feels if you see the person go through the hard work and then through the failure, you might even say '' aw, that's sad he/she worked so hard at it and failed...i can imagine how that feels....'' you know what, you cant. so instead of putting on a sad face or criticizing on the failed product, why don't you just try giving ideas on how to improve the failed products at the right time, not when the person is at their lowest point. IF you cant do that, then just keep your mouth shut about it, nobody asked you about YOUR opinion.




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