i'm BORED

it's not boredom from nothing to do, it's more like boredom from being stuck at the same phase of my life for the past few months.

for knowing how much i could have done in the past but couldn't do anything about it any more.

for realising now that being cool, isn't really that cool.

for realising now how much i miss being able to chat without worries to people i care instead of having to comfort them about things like every-things-ok-with-your-relationship ( irony considering the fact i was NEVER in a relationship )

for suddenly realising people you dont use to care so much about might mean alot to you in the future.

for suddenly realising how much of myself i lost in the process of trying to be someone i wanted to be.

for having to be nice to people who hated me from the begining of the year because of a small minor error in what i said because i want to mend it

for feeling like i had left out on one of the most fun periods in my life which i could have enjoyed but was to lazy to enjoy it or was plain lazy.

for having to put up a i'm-fine-and-am-not-emoing when i am obviously emoing

for having to deal with other's love problems on almost every call i get

for having to deal with everything myself when i am emo because i cant bear to tell anyone else and ruin thier perfect image of the happy me because they depend on me for comfort

but mostly

for feeling like a total pathetic loser i am feeling now.

which is why,

if you guys at college ever reads this since none of you knows my blog

will understand the reason why i never told about my blog.

nice way of putting it, i care too much.

bad way of putting this, i love myself too much.

gosh, i cant tell all of you who were once my school mates how much i missed you guys.... even though i never been to any trips with you in the past or bothered to talk to you in the past. those feelings i longed for in the past was there because you guys were there. all of you. no matter how long was it since i last contacted you or how many topics we share.

love you guys. and will continue loving all of you in this dead blog not many people know about.

becca- u better call me SOON. or i swear i'll.....do something UNTHINKABLE :x

po chi - somebody promised to call me on 21st of july? o.O

sheou jun-

and loads of other people whom i wont bother to label here since they either

1) doesn't know i have a blog

2) dont bother to read

or

3)never bother about this small homosapien who owns this blog

anyhow, i'd really enjoy a nice notification on my fb that somebody misses me. ( instead of the usual 'somebody tagged you in a photo' )

dont mind the fact i sound pethatic in this post -.-

wooohooooo~

sorry ppl ( if there r still any ppl out there who realise i own a blog and have NOT forgotten about it ), abandoned blog for more than 4 months already. time i dug it back up and start typing x)

4 months is a long period of time. the last time i blogged, i haven't even finished my first round of finals and was fretting over wether i will pass T1 and T2. ( stupid thought -.- i mean.... do smart ppl like me FAIL easy exams that only require u to click your chosen answer into the computer? DUH!!! of course they do. why else do you think i'll FRET??? )

now, lets see where in my many stages of life i am in now.



i passed my T1 and T2 *screams of joy in the back*

i sat for my T3, T4 and T5 (yes, i studied, cried, slept, fret, ignored exam, stressed for 3 months before the exam... [ not that THAT many ppl knew or BOTHERED to know if i did] )

i got a job, credits to ellie :) whom i bet doesn't know her name is appearing on a blog she doesn't even know exists. i earn 80 bucks a day selling 3 weeks of kiwi and 1 week of 'safeggs'. the eggs were a stupid thing -.- i mean, who would pay 1 BUCK to buy eggs ppl CLAIM to be PASTURISED and has ADDED DHA???!!! ( 'claimed' meaning they MIGHT have but i have no idea if they are telling the truth ) anyway, you don't want to see me on a court case for sabotaging other's business, do you? so i'll just drop it at that. but kiwi was SOOO fun! i get to meet 'safegg' promoters who all turn out to be pretty cool ppl cause we work same days ( meaing i won't be all lonely and start talking to the na bet supervisor who took a liking to me because i sold all his kiwi stock and broke their record ) and they are all newbies so i get to act like a total you-guys-have-no-idea-how-to-do-it-right-so-worship-me-and-i'll-teach-you sucker! Lol, it lasted only a few seconds for every promoter i meet, but i love to think of myself as a MEANIE x) guilty pleasure ;P nyway, i'll be glad to leave, ( after supposingly 8 days but worked another 2 extra days as a extra favour AFTER i supposingly resigned ) since the staffs are SO friendly to me now, they even tickle me! x.x

i meet a few interesting characters that i found joy in chatting with. these characters go by the name of alvin liu something and colin something. i actually felt closer to alvin, whom i've only knew a few hours, than my colledge mates whom i knew for MONTHs. ( but nothing beats chatting and spilling things and teasing and getting teased and gossiping and having fun with u guys whom my life used to spin around when i was in secondary school. cheers. ;'])

i read, harry potter series, pendragon, and some other books my mom randomly borrowed from PJ library.

i stayed at hospital KL for a night. ( to look after my grandma who went for a minor operation which did NOT take place in the end ) fantastic experience i tell you, but not necessarry in the good way.

i 'supposingly' switched my phone and 'supposingly' gave my brother my old phone. but i loved my old phone too much, there were too many sweet messages which i kept from ppl i cared there that could not be transfered. i hadn't the heart to give it away :'(

i am watching 'vampire diaries' and 'gossip girls' ( gaaahhhhh~ i asolutely LOVE Chuck. ignoring the fact that he's a totally spoilt rich bastered who is immensly annoying when he is emo, he a GREAT boyfriend...... i cant believe i'm saying this, he's not even cute! )

i gained x-kg. ( becca!!! u said you'll come here n we'd go jogging together x( come on! i need to get my butt off my comfy bed )

i went and came back from a family trip to cambodia :)

i went and came back from a class trip to genting.

i was officially hated by 2 girls in my class whom i used to look up to because of something i innocently joked about in the BEGINING of my first semester. ( 3 actually, but 1 of them is currently a friend )

i currently support SPAIN after argentina loss 4-0 to germany ==

my 2 girl friends whom was with me since beggining of sem is currently dating my 2 boy friends whom was in the gang since begining of sem leaving me, a loner, sitting between 2 couples in the cinema. ==


oh,


and of course, there's the part about my long-ago-crush-whom-used-to-set-my-heart-fluttering who finally realised that he likes me == took him quite a while :( but like i said, 'used to' i'm not sure i still like him as much anymore


i wont bother you with the mushy details i'm sure u're not interested in. furthur details? ask me out to yam cha! or call me out!


so long, cheers ppl :)

updates!!!!...finally

am currently blogging at Sunway University College library and is panic'ing while feeling guilty as it is less than 24 hours to my CAT, T1 and T2 exam but not doing anything about it.

somebody...MOTIVATE me!!!! >.< scream at me, pinch me, annoy me, bug me...help!!! lazy girl in serious need for motivation


so, back to main purpose. UPDATES.

apparently, i haven't updated in more than a month. too lazy to type 1 month's stuff now. just random nice stuff :)

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22nd Feb

class party!!
organised by Eli.
suggested by Ms Geetha.

everyone was required to bring sth. lazy me brought chips. x)

really really nice food contributed by class mates, rated by me. ( sorry if the food you brought is not rated here x.x )

rice balls-yee lynn
i tell you, theserice balls were so nice! and no wonder, her sister who came back frm a student exchange program in Japan thought her how to do it. :)

KFC (lol) - kai liang, zhen hui, zhan ping and jeremy
haha, they rushed off to pyramid to buy it after class. xD the fried chicken was the first to be cleared off!

potato, egg, cucumber salad- Jesseca
potato lover!!! >>>me explains it all, doesn't it? ;)

baked mash potato-Elizabeth
same as above. a true potato lover

apple pie- Daniel o.o
so pleasantly shocked that this guy can BAKE. WTH, i'm terrible. btw, the pie was really good. RECIPES!!!!

Choc chip cookies- vivien and vi ven
another pleasant surprise and a shock to my self esteem. gosh....are people born with baking abilities or what? cause i definately dont have it :(

some really nice i-dont-know-what-made-with-vege - by cassey
lol, ka may's a lucky girl ;)


PS: i pop'ed the bottle of sparkling juice! and shocked the guy on the first floor who's talking on the phone xP the first time in my life. it's fun :)

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28 Feb

go wan qi's house
determined-to-go-to-her-house me dumped alone to talk to her mom while she watches TV and ate a 3-hour dinner.

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1st March

sudden debate competition
CSB lesson ( comunication-sth-sth... it's english ) turned out to be a debate competion. i tell you... Ming Sung is a total crappin idiot. x(

he practically interupted all my speeches with craps. something about, wait... pornography??

the title,
advantages against disadvantages of the internet.

most teachers above 30, will definately vote for it's disadvatages.
unlucky me x.x

no results were anounced. i thought we did ok, and casey was really good, so was ka may!!! teacher praised them too...and me x)

we shoke hands after that. no hard feelings... right?

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6 March

laughed and watched a movie after crying and nearly jumping off the roof-top of sunway college. yup, i failed BOTH me exams by 1 mark EACH. maddening.

never managed to convince myself i was gonna be good at accounts...
ps. solomon kane is the MOST violent movie i've ever watched. Ying even cried watching.
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8th March

not being an avid(is there such word?) facebooker, i didn't see the notification for exam resits to bad-no-good-at-accounts-thus-failing-exam-students. saw only on the same morning as the resit exam.

dont even dare to imagine my results. ==

'tumpang'ed douglas' car back. :) thanks. was stuck in the jam, in a rain for...45 minutes?

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10th March

stayed over at Ying's house for thenight.
had burger ( without ketchup ), wedges ( not really crunchy ) and coke ( the only normal processed food as the only 'task' was to open the bottle ) for dinner.

played cards, learn how to play mah jong ( still blurr ) untill 3.30am.

amy stayed the night through awake.

ps. must have been some kind problem with nana's eye's that night.... she praised me trice in a day o.O

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11th March

dont ask.

it's bad.

so bad, i think it'll cost me a lot of courage if i'm gonna meet my really kind, good bio and chemistry teacher next time. :(

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12 March
vivien's birthday!!! she helped me a lot so i wanted it to be a surprise. too bad, she was too observant x( and i was too easy to see observe.

and i was just wondering if there was a even more blurr person than me in this world cause she didn't even ask when she saw me doing ' something' ( poking candles and panic-ing when i realise there is a missing candle on a chair opposite her) in front of her.

anyway, happy birthday!! remember to open all the wishing stars, kay? :)

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13th March

saw lots of people in the open day. wonder if i'll be seeing any of them soon here? it'll be fun!

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18th March

found this really exciting blog. credits to eva.
and changed the blog skin! credits to eva too!

go here >>>> Yasmine

don't be impressed. the link above to allow you readers ( if any ...x.x ) to go to her blog, is also help from eva.

ps. i'll never understand weired codings. computer illiterate aleart!!! x.x

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wish me luck! important-must-pass-or-else-have-to-pay-rm300-per-paper tmr!!!! pray for me... seriously ==


it's my last T1 and T2 exam tmr ( hopefully ) .... let me pass... please? * hopeful look*

past events~

last Wednesday

i wore secondary school's white t-shirt to college. as it would be weired to pair it with my usual jeans, i had to wear a skirt with it. it was my first time wearing a skirt to college.

why did i do that? lol, cause i promised eva i'll wear the white uniform if she wore it too.

so, with a school uniform, i obviously invited stares. especially ivy.

ivy: .......*stares*

me: er, yes? * while continue walking to the lobby*

ivy: is that....

me: this? *tugs shirt* yup! it's my white school uniform i wore to school!

ivy: omg, really? i thought i looked familiar but i wasn't sure!

me: haha...... *akwardnesss*

back at class..........

michell, angle.....: *mumbles mumbles and stare*

me: * continue walking to find a nice seat*

michell: cL!

me: huh? *turns to face her*

michell: are you wearing the school uniform arh?

me: uh huh, yeah?

michell: oh.. * turns to angel and continue mumbling*

that's how weired it is. so i thought......

then, eva came in.

she was wearing the same white shirt, smaller in size, a sweater and a extremely SHORT mini skirt.o short in fact, that she HAD to wear a pair of tights underneath. ( i tell you, she looked REALLY HOT in that. which in turn makes me look sloppy )

oh yeah, so she won the attention and the wolf whistles that day. x.x but i think she did not want as many attention as she obtain that day xP ( this is PURELY a comment, not due to jealousy or what-so-ever )

that night, went out for dinner with amy, ying, nana, loon, teoh, and wai kit. had 'lou sang' and simple dishes at sri petaling.

as the guys left the table to go 'the store', a fight took place.

this drunk guy ( he couldn't even stand properly ) was speaking some unknown language and took out his fist to hit another guy at a table just next to ours. but before he hit, he half fall on the floor, so his opponent ( the guy that was about to get hit ) had to pull him up instead of defending himself.

at that point of time, they were preety close to us already, but we were too shocked to do anything. then, the drunk guy who got helped got pissed off for being helped. he tried to push his opponent away and slam his hand on our table for support.

instinctively, all 4 of us girls practically left our seats and ran as far off as possible, clinging to one another. it wasn't too far either as all the other tables have left their tables too. i scarcely remember amy saying something to us, but i was in too much shock to take it in.

then, the drunk guy laid his eyes on the same thing i suddenly remembered we left on the table.

amy's bottle of red wine.

before any of us could do anything, the drunk guy grabbed the 3 quarters full bottle of wine a tried to throw it at his opponent.

being drunk, he missed. leaving a big pool of red wine on the tar road.

then, another person came over, tried to calm the guy, and lead him away.

the 4 of us were then left there shocked with a bottle of shattered wine.

.......i think the boss felt guilty about it, but asked for full payment ANYWAY. and the guys? useless bunch of guys disbelief us about the fight and teased us until the staffs told loon that there WAS a fight.

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last Thursday,

went last minute shopping at mega mendung with mom.

met quek outside maybank, and zhi seng at central.

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last friday n Saturday,

left over spring cleaning and dinner and granma's house. won RM 2 during black jack.

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last sunday,

Ang pao!!!! Ang Pao, Ang pao, Ang Pao, Ang pao, Ang Pao, Ang pao, Ang Pao, Ang pao!!!!!!!

:)

watched new moon with cousins. i won rm3. dad lost, rm45 =.= ...... told his to stop betting...

PS, one of my cousins actually brought chess to play with me but i didn't realize as i was too busy with cards. :( And he did not even whine about it. Nice guy.... :)

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monday

ang paos, food, cards and chess :)

ps, won rm27 ~^^

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today,

bake, fail.

blog,

facebook,

KFC

and now, preparing to sleep.

nitez, people!

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cL here, signing off

Boriiiiing

went facebook again just now. after 'happy farming', played 'vampire' then go looking up for any new pics uploaded by friends......

you know what's this called? LIFELESS

it's soooo boring.... please, i NEED a LIFE

i dont wanna stick to the comp every free time i got that i dont feel like sleeping. i want to be busy, to be busy planning events for people i care, to be busy on outings with friends or family members, to be busy chatting up with people instead of staring at a certain something, feel like commenting on it but think that it will not be appropriate since i do not know the person as well as i hope to.

it's chinese new year, for goodness sake, it's like my ONLY break of the semester. weired why i wouldn't want to spent my well-deserved-break sleeping huh? i've no idea.

anyway, curious why i'm emo?

simple, i did baking today. ( THAT probably explains itself already )

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FINE, so i baked another bunch of disfigured cookies ( it's not my fault! stupid CENTRAL doesn't have cold enough air-con to keep the mini kisses in pieces! it was all melted and stuck together when i brought it home... ), so what? it's my specialty! i mean, who else can bake more disfigured cookies that i can? *wink*

hmmm, maybe i should set up my own bran ;x .....

how does ''famous cl disfigured cookies' sound? :D it's not really meant for or eating ( unless the person thinks disfigured cookies are a better way to get a a bad tummy and get a MC than flu ) , it's just a motivation for other failed bakers and a moto for people who dont bake to get started. because, 'famous cl disfigured cookie' balieves that ANYBODY can bake :)

oh, i STILL need a life. outing anyone? ;)