lol, i sound like a 55 year-old old lady. anyway, yesterday was my retirement as ajk PRS. it was rather emotional, at least for me, near the end of the event. but i managed to blink it away. i had plenty i wanted to tell during my speech, but i was lost for words. kinda regret it. i had so many people i wanted to thank, so many things i want to tell, but it never came out. i wonder if anybody will ever know how much i wanted to tell?
yesterday, was a slight disappointment. i expected only a small amount of members to turn up, but i was shocked to see only a few. even the group of form 3 boys who has always been rather active left halfway through the event....i guess the form 4's shared our disappointment. what happened to our club? where are the active members we used to have? have they left the club? is it the fact that activities aren't as fun anymore? or is it just how people don't like getting involved in what-seems-boring-but-not-necessary-is anymore?
anyway, i guess i just can't share cheng li's joy of ''i'm finally FREE!!!!'' it didn't felt like the end, it felt like the beginning of many more disappointments and good-byes.
i really truly hope the next batch of you do well. especially you, lim wai pheng, my successor... (did i spell your name right? x.x)
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oh, on Friday i went out with becca, hui li, and wan qi. my mom actually said no, but later said yes. so i met up with them after the movie.
shucks, missed the movie, i actually thought we were going for 3 movies? bah...
Sunday, September 20, 2009
wooohooooo~~~
i rock, i seriously rock, i seriously ultimately rock
i fixed my blog!!!! xD (it's a big deal ok?) and i have no idea how i did it. x.x i was getting all frustrated for not being able to fix it for the past 1 hour, i couldn't remember what i clicked. suddenly, the layout came back!
my chat box is back, my links are back.....;D
oh, and as they were all recovering, i noticed something.....screw....i only posted 5 post the whole of this year???
wow....that's something i have to work on...together with my studies T.T
i fixed my blog!!!! xD (it's a big deal ok?) and i have no idea how i did it. x.x i was getting all frustrated for not being able to fix it for the past 1 hour, i couldn't remember what i clicked. suddenly, the layout came back!
my chat box is back, my links are back.....;D
oh, and as they were all recovering, i noticed something.....screw....i only posted 5 post the whole of this year???
wow....that's something i have to work on...together with my studies T.T
Thursday, September 17, 2009
trials are OVER!!!!
pop the champagne! dig out those packs of unwatched DVD's! keep the books!! trial's over!!!!! xD since the kementrian just announced school holiday on Friday, that means, for students who doesn't take accounts or arts( memememememe) its a 11 days straight holiday! :D
have lots of planning the these 11 days, but since i'm such a good girl, i'm going to school tomorrow. to accompany WanQi, AND make plannings ;D
i wanna watch G-Force! (the hamsters are hard-to-resist' ing ly cute!!!)
and UP (balloons!!!)
and ORPHAN~~~ haha, this will probably the first and last time u hear me excited about watching horror movie x.x
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oh, i'm retiring this Saturday......19th of September.... :'(
from saturday onwards, i will no longer be able to wear my gold tag....will DEFINITELY miss the proud, confident feeling i have when i wear it.
i always wonder if any other ajk's feel what i feel as an ajk. to value your post, to try your best, to try to do all you can? sometimes, when things get rough, complains start piling. then a slight feeling of guilt kind of crawls through, i sometimes think i don't do enough to be worth my post (especially when i'm talking to Cheng Li x( ). and then, there are times, when i feel so over-worked that i feel like i should just give this whole thing up and later becomes all teary that i should think like that. it's a love hate relationship x) but i love it 90 percent more that i hate it.
the best part? to be able to have so many people respect you in some weird way and to know that you are able to MAKE significant changes. so it rather upsets me when i KNOW that there is nothing i can do about somethings. among them, the news about a few members quitting. it was terrible, i was depressed about it for quite some time, tried talking to them, but to no avail.
the worst part? when people thinks, say or hint that this post i am holding has nothing to do. to those who did less things than me, i somehow wonder if you even have the right to say such things. to those who did more than me, well, then it must have been my fault that i couldn't help you enough, so....sincere apologies here. ( i would have preferred to say it 1 on 1, but it'll be weird if a 'sorry' pops out of nowhere. )
so, if i don't get a speech on Saturday, ( hint hint xP ) i want to say that i was generally happy and grateful about this post, even if nobody bothers whether i am or not. i especially treasure our moments in Pangkor :) ( was not because i nearly drowned, ok?) , and the interactions during meetings, kursus tahunan, pameran and others. pameran especially, since it was so stressful. ( was busy the whole time i didn't even had time to explore other clubs! =[ ) was, and still is so glad we got champion :)
this year passed a bit too fast....
to our successors, keep the tradition alive, do the booking early, get all the reports and minutes done on time, do planning, stay as a team and WIN the pameran next year, make it a 5 YEARS STRAIGHT WIN!!
if there's anything i can help, sent me a mail, a text, a ring x) i'll do all i can.
once a prs, always a prs. PRS ROCKS!!!!
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Hui Li called me up last Sunday afternoon, she told me one of the teachers called to ask her to ask me if i wanted to become a counselor, for a year-end, 5 days 4 night Dharma camp. i was so excited, i said yes before she told me the details. i was rather shocked rather, that the teacher ( whom thought me when i was still in primary school and went for Sunday classes ) actually asked me, who is as good as an outsider. ( although my part of the job is probably going to be a very easy one ) i went for the youth camps conducted by this temple for a few time, it was fun. after that, if i went to the temple again, i always felt guilty, embarrass, and blame my poor memory every time somebody says 'hi' to me and i either do not recognize them or do not remember their name. x.x
anyway, i said yes, and was determined to be able to recognize these people if i ever saw them again. ( you can't imagine the embarrassment when somebody tells you your team member who happens to be in the same school tries to greet you for a whole year and apparently, you have never noticed this...) then when she told me, the camp is from 18th to 22nd of December.....what?! and then my part of the line went silent for some time, full with flash backs of past experience of spending that special day at camps and the shattering sound of all my plans. suddenly, joining the camp as a counselor does not sound very tempting. but, part of me wanted it very bad, so i said i'll just have to change my plans.
too bad Amy, u missed the chance to help celebrate my birthday on the actual day....again
wonder if you guys will have planned it better this year, or even remembered?
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anyway, trials were terrible, they make you stay up late. i even had a 27 hour no sleep at all experience! too bad i still think i did terrible, maybe cause i did?
wish me luck when i get my papers.
PS, i think Becca should have got higher marks then me in the english essay, i think mine was boringly long winded.
PPS, still find it fascinating how the tips actually bocor'ed?
PPPS, hamsters are seriously cute
have lots of planning the these 11 days, but since i'm such a good girl, i'm going to school tomorrow. to accompany WanQi, AND make plannings ;D
i wanna watch G-Force! (the hamsters are hard-to-resist' ing ly cute!!!)
and UP (balloons!!!)
and ORPHAN~~~ haha, this will probably the first and last time u hear me excited about watching horror movie x.x
-------------------------------------
oh, i'm retiring this Saturday......19th of September.... :'(
from saturday onwards, i will no longer be able to wear my gold tag....will DEFINITELY miss the proud, confident feeling i have when i wear it.
i always wonder if any other ajk's feel what i feel as an ajk. to value your post, to try your best, to try to do all you can? sometimes, when things get rough, complains start piling. then a slight feeling of guilt kind of crawls through, i sometimes think i don't do enough to be worth my post (especially when i'm talking to Cheng Li x( ). and then, there are times, when i feel so over-worked that i feel like i should just give this whole thing up and later becomes all teary that i should think like that. it's a love hate relationship x) but i love it 90 percent more that i hate it.
the best part? to be able to have so many people respect you in some weird way and to know that you are able to MAKE significant changes. so it rather upsets me when i KNOW that there is nothing i can do about somethings. among them, the news about a few members quitting. it was terrible, i was depressed about it for quite some time, tried talking to them, but to no avail.
the worst part? when people thinks, say or hint that this post i am holding has nothing to do. to those who did less things than me, i somehow wonder if you even have the right to say such things. to those who did more than me, well, then it must have been my fault that i couldn't help you enough, so....sincere apologies here. ( i would have preferred to say it 1 on 1, but it'll be weird if a 'sorry' pops out of nowhere. )
so, if i don't get a speech on Saturday, ( hint hint xP ) i want to say that i was generally happy and grateful about this post, even if nobody bothers whether i am or not. i especially treasure our moments in Pangkor :) ( was not because i nearly drowned, ok?) , and the interactions during meetings, kursus tahunan, pameran and others. pameran especially, since it was so stressful. ( was busy the whole time i didn't even had time to explore other clubs! =[ ) was, and still is so glad we got champion :)
this year passed a bit too fast....
to our successors, keep the tradition alive, do the booking early, get all the reports and minutes done on time, do planning, stay as a team and WIN the pameran next year, make it a 5 YEARS STRAIGHT WIN!!
if there's anything i can help, sent me a mail, a text, a ring x) i'll do all i can.
once a prs, always a prs. PRS ROCKS!!!!
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Hui Li called me up last Sunday afternoon, she told me one of the teachers called to ask her to ask me if i wanted to become a counselor, for a year-end, 5 days 4 night Dharma camp. i was so excited, i said yes before she told me the details. i was rather shocked rather, that the teacher ( whom thought me when i was still in primary school and went for Sunday classes ) actually asked me, who is as good as an outsider. ( although my part of the job is probably going to be a very easy one ) i went for the youth camps conducted by this temple for a few time, it was fun. after that, if i went to the temple again, i always felt guilty, embarrass, and blame my poor memory every time somebody says 'hi' to me and i either do not recognize them or do not remember their name. x.x
anyway, i said yes, and was determined to be able to recognize these people if i ever saw them again. ( you can't imagine the embarrassment when somebody tells you your team member who happens to be in the same school tries to greet you for a whole year and apparently, you have never noticed this...) then when she told me, the camp is from 18th to 22nd of December.....what?! and then my part of the line went silent for some time, full with flash backs of past experience of spending that special day at camps and the shattering sound of all my plans. suddenly, joining the camp as a counselor does not sound very tempting. but, part of me wanted it very bad, so i said i'll just have to change my plans.
too bad Amy, u missed the chance to help celebrate my birthday on the actual day....again
wonder if you guys will have planned it better this year, or even remembered?
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anyway, trials were terrible, they make you stay up late. i even had a 27 hour no sleep at all experience! too bad i still think i did terrible, maybe cause i did?
wish me luck when i get my papers.
PS, i think Becca should have got higher marks then me in the english essay, i think mine was boringly long winded.
PPS, still find it fascinating how the tips actually bocor'ed?
PPPS, hamsters are seriously cute
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