finally

updating.....was trying to complete the tags i OWE people....but, was still not done after 3 hours...TT so it's now rotting in the draft till i find the mood to complete it, sorry guys =P

anyway, hols are here.....and they are half way gone!!!! gosh, how fast does time slip by when you least expects it. and i haven't even managed to watch the animes i wanted TT thanks to my brother who is rushing assignments after assignments....talk about college life, i thought they were suppose to be fun?

so, how have i been lately? well lets see, last Saturday i went to a salon in pj state which i have always had high comment on.....until saturday, that is. i waited for, what, 20 minutes? before someone came and asked me how i would like my hair cut, well, i don't mind waiting since it's rather full. then she started snipping......snip....snip....snip went the scisors....... before i knew it, AAaaaaaHHhhhh!!!!!!!! i had a more terrible hair cut than when i was in standard 6 !!!!!!!! i was too stunned to say anything or to even stop her from snipping anymore, i sat there on the chair, stared at the miror in horor, and..............

.......nodded my head........yes, you read right, i nodded my head.....i guess my brain was somehow affected, or else, i would have glared at her insted of smilling like an idiot at the miror!! later, after she was done TOYING with my hair, i stood up and walk towards the entrance. " don't worry 'bout it, in one or two weeks time, i'll grow nicely.".................one...or two weeks? so what am i gonna do? walk around the street in a mask? it's not even halloween!! PLUS, our contry dont celebrate halloween!!

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how much worse can a girl get than a freaky hairstyle, bad throat and a fever plus cough and running nose?

anyway, since i'll be at home for *sound of calculator pressed on* 96 lovely hours, my slow-growing hair had better grow. oh yeah, monday was wenli's birthday, 24th of november. this is actually the first year i remembered!!!!^^ well, not that i'm suppose to be pround of it....taking the fact that i known her since preschool and that her father is my dad's friend and also that i went to camerons with her TWICE already.........

.......you know, i have a REALLY bad memory...

so anyway, i remembered!!! and i sent her a sms from Malaysia at 12 am....to MELBOURME, australia!!! fantastic how the phone lines get us together in which she replied me...at 6am == then it got me thinking, you know, maybe i should get her a present or something, since i haven't given her anything before xP but then again, why spoil her? i sent her a birthday wish sms and i'm freezing her a cake and i remembered the actual day of her birthday!! good enough for me, i guess? and yes, i'm an ungrateful, forgetful, annoying, irritating, cheeky brat.....but i guess that's my speciality, i pick a quiet victim and bug the victim till the person talks......po chi's a great example, lol.

but wen li's story is really different you know, you wont believe it even if i told you. we first met in a school bus, when we were still in kindergarden.

this was the tale of how we met:

'' after the bell rang that day, all the kiddies ran out to board the bus or go home with thier parents. the bus was quickly filled, so the little girl who came in the bus late had no place to sit. she stared around for a seat. suddenly she spots a seat and sits down next to another girl. none said anything. after a while, the girl suddenly turns to the other and say...'' can i be your friend?''.....stunned, the other replied '' sure...''

and that's how it all started. sorry if my memory was a bit blurr or i added some stuff but i was so shocked that anybody actually turned and ask, '' can i be your friend?'' i remembered it quite well. from then on, i took notice of another homosapien except for the few that were close to me.

not that we were close after that but, we were okay. i only started to really know her when we were in standard 5. we played stones together. cant remember though why she joined me in my ''polishing ugly stone quest using a toothbrush'' hahahaha, sweet memories.....i think it was because i was bugging her and irritating her to play with me while waiting for my mom, oh sheesh, doesn't matter now, we're on good terms.

guess that's it for today.

p/s, spent over a hundred on baking ingredients that day, hope everything turns out ok....at least edible...x.x....screw the milk products that shot sky high, the scs butter was rm8.40!!! and the bar of 2kg philadaphia cream cheese, rm44!!!

i'm back!!!.....i guess

tags......i'm loaded with them....anybody kind enough to help me type my answers to the questions? i'll....erm.....bake u a cake? ( no guarantee that it'll be nice )......*waiting for reply*....................*waiting some more for reply*....................*waiting really really impatiently for reply*...............okay, fine, i'll do it, thanks to all of u who TAGGED me, how SWEET of u to do that, i'm sure u guys tagged me cause u all LIKE me TOO much right?

feel all your hair rising? dont worry bout it, i just need some motivation to get started. so here's the tag.

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from becca

Rules:
1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning.
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves.
3. At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog.

Starting time: 2309
Name: cai ling (?)
Sisters: none
Brothers: GY(elder) and GJ(younger)

Shoe size: no telling, guess, 4-7 [ i have big feet x( ]
Height: 160.5 ( i guess, if i hadn't grown taller or shorten )

where do you live: in a ordinary row of terrace house in the middle of a lot of other terrace houses?

Favourite drinks: erm.....ice lemon tea, pearl milk tea....basically all creamy drinks and ice blends
Favourite breakfast: PANCAKES!!!!! and FRENCH TOAST with honey and peanut butter!!!! ^^

have you everbeen on a plane?: yeah
( changing this question) swam/float in the ocean:( second option) yeah huh, a crab even manage to get in between me and my life jacket when i was snorkeling in perhentian =.=
Fallen asleep at school: who doesn't?
Broken someone's heart: i guess so?
Fell off your chair: yeah? i've done MANY humiliating stuff, so.....you won't want to know
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: yuh huh ( no telling who is it )
Saved e-mails: yup, and memorable sms'ses too.......especially the one becca sent me =P

What is your room like: bare? with a bed, a TV, a cupboard, a bookshelf, a antique computer....
What's right beside you: a cup of root beer?

the last thing you ate: pizza~~~~^^
Ever had chicken pox: yeah
Sore throat: always, never liked them
Stitches: nope~
Broken nose: nope and i hope i never will

Do you believe in love at first sight: guess so, anything can happen
Like picnics: yeah, especially if my mom makes those triangular toasted sardine sandwiches

Who was/were the last person/people you danced with: with the cloth to wash dishes? yeah, i'm a wierdo, just felt hyper active that day
Last made you smile: my elder brother
You last yelled at: eh.....nobody i can remember, i've been feeling either extreamly good or extrealy sick these days....none which conditions fit to make me scream

Today did you:
Talk to someone you like: duh? i talk everyday to people i like
Kiss anyone: nope
Get sick: yeaahh, now.....and i'm doing a tag instead of sleeping, how great is that?
Talk to an ex: .....ex?
Miss someone: uh huh, but not VERY much
Eat: yeaaah.

Best feeling in the world: when i'm feeling mischievous while talking to someone i like, when someone praises me, when enjoying the cities' night view or some really nice things or when i eat food i like
Do you sleep with stuffed animals: of course, i used to not be able to sleep without my teddy or rabbit.
What's under your bed: dust bunnies?
Who do you really hate: nobody currently

What time is it now? : 2339

Random:
Is there a person who is on your mind now: nope
Do you have any siblings: 2 brothers.
Do you want children: uh.. no idea?
Do you smile often: yeah, i practically smile for no reason...if i'm in the mood
Do you like your hand-writing: sometimes, most of the time, no, it's really ugly

Are your toe nails painted: nope.
Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: my younger brother's bed ( used to be mine ) , hotel's bed!!!! cause u can mess it up and nobody's gonna scold u, and they are usually cold with those big heavy warm cuddly blankets.
What color shirt are you wearing now: white shirt with a shark pic from gold coast
What were you doing at 7:00 p.m. yesterday: .........gee, i can't remember.....this is bad

I can't wait till: my fever's over
Are you a friendly person: depends
Do you have any pets: nope

Where is the person you have feelings for right now?: no idea
Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now?: i can't remember who was last.

Do you sleep with the TV on?: yeah, when i watch lat night movies
What are you doing right now?: typing
Have you ever crawled through a window?: nope, i'm a good girl
Can you handle the truth?: if it's some cold hard truth, no.....but still, it's better to tell me plainly than having me find out myself
Are you too forgiving?: i dunno.
Are you closer to your mother or father?: equally

Who was the last person you cried in front of?: po chi? it was a long time....
How many people can you say you've really loved?: my families plus close friends, i'd say, urhm, 13?

Do you eat healthy?: nope.
Do you still have pictures of you & your ex?: No ex...
Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you?: yeah
If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to?: my teddy, my bro, or my very close friends whom i feel most comfortable with at that time
Are you loud or quiet most of the time?: loud....bad habit
Are you confident?: sometime, if there's something i must do and that i'm well prepared

5 things I was doing 10 years ago:
1. sticking a chewing gum in a guy in my kinder garden's hair and got beating for it
2. watching Disney movies and sucking on gummy bear sweets
3. bugging my brother to draw me a pic of sailor moon
4. playing barbie dolls and tea parties?
5. going for walks with my dad to a fenced up river near my old house to see fireflies....tons of them.....though it's a sad fact that the river is now polluted and the fireflies died off and also that people have to PAY to see fireflies nowadays....

5 things on my to-do list today:
1. make sure i pass my add math for the next term exam
2. bug my bro to give me the computer password
3. freeze two cakes for two November babies
4. pass up tuition homework and other school projects on time
5. spend more time chatting and catching up with family and friends

5 snacks I enjoy:
1. fruits
2. yogurt
3. sushi
4. popcorn
5. potato chips

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:
1. treat my whole family and close friends to a relaxing trip?
2. buy a small island and built a castle on top of the mountains......ahhhHHHH!!!!
3. travel all around the universe
4. make more money and later write a book on how to make more money which will in time make more money for me? lol
5. do charity

5 of my bad habits:
1. eating! O.O non-stop
2. lazy.
3. emotional?
4. forgetful
5. delaying stuff

5 places I have lived in:
1. happy garden
2. serdang
3. oug
4. -
5. -

5 jobs I've had:
1. babysitter.....but the money i get is my pocket money
2. complete household chores, like, 20 cents for moping flour?
3. tuition teacher, for my younger bro, my highest pay ever, rm5
4. doing 4-5 hosehold chores in a day, a meal at subway!!
5. waitress? in my cousin's restaurant

5 people I tag:
nobody......i'm done!!! for 1 tag....TT

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from here on, is going to be a fantastic 99 questions tag......

tagged by becca also

okay. I'll officially start my tag. here goes to nothing.

1.ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
i have a scar filled leg, which one do u want? the one scattered all over? caused by countless mosqitoes in my house which my brother happily peel off after it dried out....CAUSING the scars. and the one on both my knee's? from my fall off the bike....seperately, one of them even had a pebble in it when it was healing making it a even bigger scar

2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
uhhh....long ago exam time table? no wait, *runs upstairs, riiiiiippppp* there's nothing on my room walls

3. WHAT DOES YOUR CELL PHONE LOOK LIKE?

rectangular?

4. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?
i dont choose songs, depends on what song my brother downloads

5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
sometime in the morning?

6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
to sleep? it's 1230 am for goodness sake

8. WHAT'S YOUR MIDDLE NAME?
oh great, 1 less question. middle name? cai ling

9. THE BEST TV SHOW EVER CREATED:
too many, gossip girls, one tree hill, gilmore girls, ugly betty, desperate housewives......

10. THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO?
my mom? she asked me to go to sleep....an hour ago?

11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
if my brain's fooling me around or after i watch ghost whisperer or even see or read something creepy

12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY?
.....long ago, no idea

######13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOGNE / PERFUME?
um.. . I like the lavender smell? not that i use either

14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
blond hair and blue eye's are really cool

15. WOULD YOU RATHER BE SMART OR FUNNY?
smart

16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINKS?
depends on what type of coffee

17. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?
topping with EXTRA cheese, pineapple, mayonise, lime and ham....>.<

18. IF YOU CAN EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
nothing, maybe strawberries. i had too much pizza just now

19. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU MADE MAD?
my younger brother? cause he wants to watch TV and i want to watch Bleach?

20. DO YOU SPEAK ANOTHER LANGUAGE?
broken, to be laughed at Cantonese, a bit of Hakka and malay, A LOT of English and Chinese.

21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU?
i don't know, i just remember getting alot of stuff on my first birthday. a rabbit soft toy from my aunt, a hello kitty soft toy from my grandpa and grandma and a lot of others which i had at the same time but don't remember who gave them to me

22. DO YOU LIKE SOMEONE?
duh, i like everyone.....sometimes?

23. ARE YOU DOUBLE-JOINTED?
nope.

24. FAVOURITE CLOTHING BRAND?
Padini? i don't know, as long as the design suits me?

25. WHAT'S YOUR DREAM CAR?
I don't dream to even drive.

26. WHAT COLOUR IS IT?
black, i guess?

27. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE KIND OF EXERCISE?
i don't LIKE excercise x(

28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING?
uh.. I can't really control that can I?

29. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?
tell them in person? or give the person a call? or even write a note, i don't know, anything but sms or msn's, they seem too hard to convince

30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED:
type or say? 65?

31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
brunettes? depends.

32. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL OFTEN?
my mom's number? to pick me up from school

33. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST?
insects, creepy crawlies, disgusting slimy stuff, snakes.....ugh

34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE U.S.?
have i even BEEN to US? NO

35. YOUR WEAKNESSES?
you don't want to know

36. TATER TOTS OR FRIES?
Tater Tots.

37. FIRST JOB?

house chores

38. EVER PRANK CALLED SOMEONE?
nope, but i think it'll be fun

39. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED OUT THIS?
watching Bleach while eating pizza and telling myself i'll do homework after watching Bleach?

40. IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY WHAT WOULD IT BE?
nothing i guess, i never said i liked my features, but i don't hate it either

41. WHY DID YOU FILL OUT THIS SURVEY?
because i have too many post under draft?

42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
lemme think.....erm, nothing in particular?

43. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL BECAME ILLEGAL?
nothing, as long as shandy's and rice wine's are still available

44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
erm, a nice sweet surprise?

45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT?
never thought of that

46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
not that i know of?

47. DO YOU WISH ON STARS?
uh huh, stars make everything feel magical

48. WHICH FINGER[S] IS YOUR FAVORITE?
i can't imagine my life without ANY of them?

49. WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY?
few months?

50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
not really, i used to get beating everyday when i was in standard 1 for bad hand writing...not that it helped

51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
duck? or fried whatever meat with nice sauce

52. ANY BAD HABITS?
do i really have to list them?

53. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING CD ON THE SHELF?
uhm, none.

54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
guess so, if you are desperate enough to not mind my really lame jokes

55. HAVE YOU EVER TOLD A SECRET YOU SWORE NOT TO TELL?
nope....i think, it might have slipped =P

56. DO LOOKS MATTER?
for first impressions, of course. do you know when we first meet somebody, the first 0.6 second is based on first impressions?

57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE YOUR ANGER?
glum around, or say really mean stuff to innocent people whom i will later regrett

58. WHERE IS YOUR SECOND HOME?
school? i spent half my( until now ) life there

59. DO YOU TRUST OTHERS EASILY?
yeah, too easily in fact, i mean, logically, LOGICALLY, why should a person lie for no reason?

60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?
a dusty, grey rabbit stuff toy? i still love it...

61. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE?
do i have to COUNT? erm, probably 60?

62. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
i'm getting better by the day =P

63. DO YOU KNOW ANYONE FAMOUS?
yes, of course! but they dont know me

64. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A MOSH PIT?
yeah.. ..

65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
depends....

66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
erm, my brother's friends calls me aunty, due to some really stupid misunderstanding which left me pissed off and left them at the door step without opening the door to them

67. HOW MANY PAIRS OF SHOES DO YOU HAVE?
3 pairs, if this includes slipers and sandles, 6 then

68. DO YOU UN-TIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
no. why should you?

69. WERE YOU UPSET ABOUT STEVE IRWIN DYING?
no, not really. it just felt odd somebody cold be killed by a stingray like that....it WAS a stingray, right?

70. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
STRAWBERRY!!!!!! BERRY rocks!!!!!!

71. ARE YOU LAZY?
why else would this post be here for, what, 3 months?

72. WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE COLORS?

light purple, sky blue, light pink, vanilla...

73. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE BAND?
i don't have a favorite band..

74. HOW MANY WISDOM TEETH DO YOU HAVE?
4? but none of them are out yet....

75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
no, i'm in a generous mood today and i don't feel like toturing anybody....well, not yet

76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
my mom talking to my bro about his results?

77. LAST THING YOU ATE?
pizza, dinner

78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
a malay girl frm pizza hut to confirm the delivery whom annoyed me

79. WHAT'S THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
his face? Lol. the way he talk and stand? basically his body language

80. FAVORITE THOUGHT PROVOKING SONG:
?

81. FAVORITE THING TO HATE:
dissapointment? TAGSS????

82. FAVORITE DRINK:
mango lassi, ice blends, yogurt drink, milk shake, sweet stuff....,*shrug*

83. FAVORITE ZODIAC SIGN:
Sagittarius!

84. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SPORT

NONE

85. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR?
mostly black, and a little brown.......no WHITE!!!! =D

86. EYE COLOR?
dark brown.

87. DO YOU WEAR GLASSES?
NOPE, and i'm utterly proud about it

88. SIBLINGS?
two brothers

89. FAVORITE MONTH(s)?
November and December. because of holidays.

90. DO YOU LIKE SUSHI?
it's okay.

91. LAST THING YOU WATCHED?
pirates of carribean

92. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
18th of December!!!!

93. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?
depends who is the someone i'm asking out?

94. SUMMER OR WINTER?

winter , it's nice, if you are in warm clothings and drinking a cup of hot chocolate while watching the snow droplets fall

95. KISSES OR HUGS?
hugs.

96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE-NIGHT STANDS?
relationships.

97. WHO IS THE MOST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
i dunno, someone who's not as lazy as me?

98. WHO IS THE LEAST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
someone who is busy and sick, like me?

99. Create your own question!
do you like doing tags? ans: nope, not really

100. IS ANYONE IN LOVE WITH YOU?
......duh?

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and ta-da!!!!!! i'm done......till next time

eh??

it's been ages since i last blogged, a month i guess? there are tons of things i want to blog about.....not to mention the few tags i owe elaine and becca which i'll have to press the button 'older post' a gazillion times to find it. == screw.

BUT, i'm not doing the tags today (though i skipped school today...but hey, the whole class isn't going...except for those with full attendance), half an hour before mom pops in to scream at me reminding me of how lazy i can be.....i'll try skipping that part and make myselve a GOOD girl and sweep and mop the floor.

before i end this though, i'll like to touch a bit on the class party two nights ago, on saturday night....it rocks. not to mention the jelly cake, chocolate cake and chocolate sponge plus cream cake which becca and ivy and....who else? bah, anyway, those who missed the cake, u missed it!!! i was great, too bad, lol. and also, elaine!!! and kit yee!!! why weren't u guys, i mean girls here? it was such fun!!

po chi was glued to the PS2 the whole night....==, but she won a few boys in naruto, resulting a very sore finger, but she's happy. oh yeah, not forgetting the guys who nearly stormed the house down( pity jean pheng and his family ) watching the match between arsenal and MU. how? well, from down stairs, it felt like EARTHQUAKE!!! just that it was from the top of our heads insted of the ground.

the house was nice, it had a fantastic view of KL and the whole of kuchai lama, i even saw our school!! i was happily enjoying the view while barbequeing for a few leeches who sat on thje table saying, hey, u might as well BBQ this too, and later hogged at the food and replying 'zhen shi thank Q ni arh, zhen shi thank Q ni arh' ( chinglish ) when i passed them the sausages. == , i really felt like trowing the sausages into the pond and feed the fishes instead.

becca was barbequeing with me to serve the those who love sausages. we ate some ourselves too =P. later, there was a match of pingpong between us ( more like badminton, lol) which teoh and wanqi later joined in. then i battled po chi in naruto which i lost while a whole buch of girls and soon leong and zan yi were snaping photos. becca crept upstairs to watch the football match, while the rest of the guys who weren't intrested in football were in the basement playing snooker.

i had great luck playin the cards with samantha and her gang......which i had always thought were quiet good goodie girls.....i even had a match of pingpong with them too ^^

overall, it was fun....and a surprise. hopefully, we can have more of this class parties......maybe during new year? somewhere high to see the fireworks? who's house next?? =D

PRS

after being with PRS since form 1, the list of ajk's next year was finally announced. brought back nice memories of me when i first joined PRS and also all the activities which were held. i remember when i was in form 1, PRS was considered a popular club ( still is now), a whole bunch of us went for the interview to become a member. on the day the list was announced, i remember smilling at basically everybody when i saw my name there. not many passed the interview, in my class, less than 3 passed. then, it was the probation period. meetings, teachers' day singing....this time, less than 5 person in the same floor as i'm in managed to pass. i still remember seing ivy sniffing with a broom in her hands next class when i passed by. curious, i asked, she told me the list of PRS members who passed the probation period was out...less than 30 was on the list. worried, i rushed to see the list. no words could describe how relieved and proud i felt when i saw my name on the paper.

then, there was 'orentasi' in the beginning of the year, hari kerjaya and also singing for teachers' day as the major PRS activities participated by the form 2's. it was during that orentasi that i learn how to sing the lagu sekolah....why? cause WE, the form 2's had to teach the newcomers how to sing the lagu sekolah....( i dont blame them if they still can't sing it, cause i didn't know how to sig it too == )

form 3 was slightly more relaxing. form 3's were in charge of being group leaders, penolong, and also the secretary for that group during kursus tahunan. i missed that event cause i was in thailand, but i helped out every other way i knew.

this year, events that form 4's last year didn't organise was organised by us. example, hari PRS, the day where we invite PRS from other schools to gather around. and also, from this year onwards, form 4's have to help with the hari kerjaya.....which i thought was organised yearly by the form 2's? anyway, it was fun, so i basically didn't mind. but, gosh, kursus tahunan was tough. so many things to prepare, our brains were squeezed to the last bit, thinking of the games to play. then there was also majlis perpisahan, for the form 5's. it was an event we had to cover with a very limited budget. i think they ( those who buys the presents as well as the ones who ordered the food and set up everything to look like a real high class buffet ) did an extreamly good job, even the form 5's complimented this as thier best meal in thier years of attending majlis perpisahan. after everything was nearly over, it was time for the form 5's to anounce the next ajk's.

3 by 3, we were called out. some were called out twice. all the 3 called out were blindfolded with a water balloon on his/her head. the ajk will then poke the balloon of the chosen ajk. water will then be splashed from first floor to the lucky one.

at that moment, i could tell for sure, a small part of everybody wanted a post, but it was rather limited. most of us, including me, joined this club for fun in the beginning, but as the conflicts thickens with the work load, everyone would, consciously or unconsciously want something in return. kl, my very confident friend, was called out for the first post. i know her well enough to know she was rather disappointed and was hopping that she wont get that particular post, cause she was eying another higher post.

as expected, she didn't get that post, though she didn't show any expression, it was obvious she was smiling to herself. she was called out the second time, for ajk discipline. she got that one, though she eyed for something higher, she looked satisfied. good too, cause she's rather scary when she's fierce.

i got called out too. the first time, i din't know what to think, cause i wasn't sure if this was what i wanted.....suddenly, i heard water splashing, but it wasn't on me. i really didn't know whether to be relieved or upset....i wasn't even sure if i'll GET another chance to go out anymore. then, as the number of posts lessens, tension increases, people were getting worried.....it was down to the second last post.....and i was called out for the second time. this time, i knew, if i don't get this post, i'm not getting anything. now to think about it, why am i so unconsciously wanting this post? i guess, in a way, i wanted to have a place where i can train my social skills as well as to expose and train myself to more challenges.

so when my balloon burst, and water was poured till my shirt was dripping, i stood at the same place, stunned. then, i rushed on stage with an annoying grin on my face. if possible, i'd like to erase that grin off my face, it must made me look so show-off....but at that time, i was so happy, i didn't care.

when i got my golden badge, with my name there, that feeling, was priceless. i took the badge back with me to my chair and stared at it......

i am now the next naib pengerusi 1 for year 2009.

to think about it, it was rather a surprise. during the individual interview, which i had to go for twice, ( == ) they asked me if i wanted a post, so of course, i said yes. then, they asked me which post i wanted, know what i told them? i told them, that when i looked at the ajk list, i did not see any post that made my heart scream " i WANT that post!!!" so if u guys think there's a suitable 1 for me, i'll take it and work my best on it. i mean, if i want to go for a post, i'll usually go big, probably the first few post on the list, but i didn't DARE to dream big. wanting something and dreaming about something is really different. one might leave u in regret, and the other might just leave u in pain and swearing u wont try it again.

so now, i'm just glad and thankful to the ex-form 5's and teachers in charge who gave me this chance to TRY and dream big though i'm not very confident with myself. i'll definately try my best to bring PRS SMKSS to it's peak, like 2 years ago when i was in form 2. ( gosh, why am i sounding like I'M the pengerusi? == )

before going 2046 with friends after clearing up that day, the current naib pengerusi made an appointment with me to meet up with her so she can explain all my duties next year. though i think it'll be tiring, it's gonna be worth it.


PS, po chi was SO shocked i got naib pengerusi she joked that PRS wont be able to get champion for pameran this year ( >.< ) so we made a deal that if PRS DO get champion, she'll belanja me mcdonalds........ngek, ngek, ngek, i'll make sure we stay as champion next year.

i'm BACK

after 6 days 5 nights trip to Cameron, i'm BACK!!!! back to mornings where u don't necessary find mist, back to eating vegetables and fruits that doesn't taste like they've been soaked in syrup, back to days where you cant even get fresh air or quiet moments on your own, back to mornings where u get up and rush around like mad cause you don't want to miss the school bus ( okay, so i always get up late, but i'm tired >< ) but on the OTHER hand, you dont have to wear a sweater and yet freeze all day long, AND you dont have to use a hairdrier to heat the bed up a bit before you even sleep ( it's 19.5 degrees, averagely)

supposingly, it was a STUDY trip, for the coming finals ( NO~~~~~><) but, it ended up to be more of a FATTENING trip........( idontNEEDtheextrapounds) , i didn't really manage to study as much as i wanted, to be more specific, i wasted the first day cause i was busy unpacking and wasn't really motivated. then, i wasted another day, being emo ( simple words gets me thinking, and sometimes, when u start thinking TOO much, u either get emo, or feel TOO pround of yourself.... i usually end up with the first ). Then, i wasted the last day unpacking and feeling how lucky i am to still be alive.....seriously, if i am a cat and had 9 lives, i'll be down to my second last life now. don't believe me? well, i nearly drowned 4 times ( i knocked out in one of them ), i nearly got knocked down by a car twice, and during my trip to thailand, an accident in the theme park left me hanging in the mid air for quite some time, which i myself can't believe how i manage to survive. ( suddenly feel so pround of myself xD ) And some people wonder why cant i swim == well, at least i still enjoy splashing around, and i totally believe in living my life to the fullest. ( i want to try bungee jump, white water rafting, sky diving, and many many many many more.....guess nine lives' just isn't enough for me =P)

anyway, the main point is that i am now officially BACK in KL......andexamsareinlessthan24hours....no~~~~~><

PS: it's good to sleep on my own bed with my soft toys and my pillows.....^^

............(part 2)

i must be out of my mind to be typing so many post's in a day >,> but, it's legal right? =P

you know, it's been odd, how almost every class i go, the class i'm in will be the talk among the teachers...as in how 'GREAT' the students are. guessed i'm jinxed....?

last year, the same teacher taught me Chinese, truthful speaking, she's a seriously good teacher, i mean, you can see that she tried hard to communicate with our class but it's not just about trying hard, there was just....nothing.....somehow, it just did not working out. i guess i'm partly responsible for being too engrossed in reading The Star newspaper sometimes till i don't even realize her existence. BUT, i gotta say, the stories she tell, are SO.....FANTASTIC, i just makes me fly into the world where emperors rule over the kingdom, in HUGE palaces , people still using carts to do all the transfering, girls walk around timidly in long....dresses?

back to topic. last year, during the anual debate competition, ( which i eagerly took part ) i was shocked to know that our team's first round will be against a group of my friends, one of them was considered my closest. i was emotionally helpless, and shock till the extend of thinking whether i should just quit.

then, few days before the competition, she told me she might just quit. shocked, i asked her why. she told me she didn't want our friendship to face problems because of a competition. somewhere in me, i was rlieved, i didn't want to compete my friend, even if it's only a friendly match. but this wasn't what i wanted, i knew it myself, she should NOT quit because of this problem, she takes this competition as seriously as i did, so why should SHE quit and not me??

on judgement day, she said she decided to join in, and made me promise nothing would change after this. recess that day, i was rather left out, all of them were in the same class, and this is a class to class competition, they had stuff to chat about, about what are the going to say during the competition....and, I, was, the, competition. i felt sad, but po chi said this kind of thing was normal, bear with it.

minutes before the competition, one of my friends told me jokingly, '' go prepare yourself a coffin, cause u're going down.'' i was somehow upset, even though i knew she was joking. i thought friends gave each other support when they need it? i even heard from a few saying that thier teacher told them, ''dont worry, that class is lazy, i bet they didn't even prepare anything.'' i was heartbroken, even the teacher's not confident in us....

anyway, we won. but lost in the second round. ( due to some really madden'ing cause = = ) everything was back to normal.


.........................................................how DID i get HERE???

i thought i was talking about teachers and how Pn. T, Pn. Fr, Mr. L got mad with us???? oh, sheesh, whatever, i'm ending the post, gotta sleep, eyebag problem ><.

chiao.......................................

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i seriously have NO idea what am i doing here but, yeah, feels odd to be blogging again, has been quite awhile. in case some of u are wondering, (not that i think any of u would be anyway ) what's with my last post? ..........it wasn't suppose to be like that!!!! ><

it all started on 1 fine day where i had extra time and decided to blog. half an hour later, when i finally published it, the internet disconnected.......NO~~~~~!!!!!!! apparently, it was disconnected for quite some time already, just that i didn't realize......blurrr....so nothing was automatically saved in draft and i decided i was too lazy to retype everything.

*PS, this is the forth time i'm typing this already............i really salute my own patience x.x

online...finaly....]

updates^^

currently crazing over 'vampire knight' animation that is, ( onemanga very slow >< ) i realised the animation and the original story is quite the same, unlike some other animations ( black cat )....which is goood. also, another manga i'm crazing over now is ' gakuen alice' also known as alice academy. fantastic story i tell u =DDDD, extreamly funny, though a bit expected. still i LOVE it^^

well, why wouldn't i? it's another supernatural story^^. oh yeah, a forward mail on the horoscopes i recieved from mr.J.... i found mine quite true^^ ( not that i'm suppose to be happy >< ) anyway, if i use the same one on becca who is also in the same horoscope as i'm in.....i don't think the descriptions would fit her.....xD

class party

BBQ class party
date: 16th august 2008 ( last saturday, few days late lol)
venue: tat sheng's house ( somewhere in tmn desa, semi-D, >< gosh, it's big.....+ nice)
time: 6:30pm ( reached at 7.30pm+ ><)

was staring at 2 sets of clothes on my bed since 4pm (?)......which one to wear ><. finally decided i'll go for the simple+classical choice.....jeans with t-shirt. then came another question...is there gonna be any water involved? do i have to bring any extra clothes? (5pm)................k, probably just grab a shirt with shorts in case things get messy. ( 6pm)

went downstairs, watched TV till someone called me on my phone ( cant rmb who) and basically shock myself. 7pm!!!! got everyone to get ready to go out, lock up and left house at 7.15pm (?)

reached tat sheng's house and stared.....i never knew he was THAT rich......swt. anyway, went in and was surprised to see only 10 people, maybe more, but at first sight, it was rather quiet. found myself a seat, and was rather numb at what to do next. i saw empty domino pizza boxes, empty cups and a basically empty table.

turning to the left, saw wei ming barbecuing some chicken wings all by himself . so, i got myself a cup, filled with 7up+sunkist+ice drink. then, po chi kinda pulled me in with her to explore the house.

it was so....nice, reminds me of a palace....=P (especially the rounded window) especially love the bar too^^. after exploring everything, i went out to look around. noticing that wei ming was still beside the electrical griller, i decided maybe i should help out.

the moment the fish was ready and taken out to the rest, it was gone in less than 10 minutes......== (no wonder there was no food when i came. . . . ) the electric griller was STUPID >< it took so long to cook something that burns easily ( of course, it still burns stuff if u leave it there for half an hour without bothering about it)

when kit yee finally came, we surprised her with a birthday cake and a floor full of balloons( thank the boys for those^^ they had a hard time). during game time, i crept out, why? u might ask....well, the food outside needs grilling =P

so...i crept out and started grilling the rest of the food. just then, po chi came out too, she wasn't interested in the games. so, we both got ourself a seat beside the griller and chat. or should i say, i grilled while chatting, she ate while chatting. but after griling the corns, i realiased to my amazement, i haven't eaten. ( 9.30pm) gosh, how in the world did i survive the few hours before?

SO, me and po chi ended up beside the griller, eating, chatting and grilling^^. it was fun =) was a long time since i had a chat like that with her, kinda forgot how it felt. when games were over, everyone came out to eat....only to find not much food was left ( hehe...we ate alot, though we grilled a lot too) oh yeah, the lamb steak i was eying was fantastic. pity becca wasn't there. po chi and i had 1 each =P most other people had to share the rest. ( cause there wasn't many.....hey, no complains to u all who weren't out there to book a lamb steak early)

at around 10, 11pm people started going home......( pity the maid that have to do the cleaning up)

P/S. if we ever have class party again, i'm voting to go tatt sheng's house again.....or maybe to some other of our rich classmates' house.......*hint* *hint*

Tags..........= =

becca....sometimes u CAN be quite annoying, you know i never fancied tags? BUT......u DID put in the photos of Remy here which i forgot to take before i gave him to you and then back to lee xian....so.....i forgive u^^ ( see? i'm so kind =P ) before i do the tag though, i have something to say....jen hoe, so sorry, the tag u tagged me dunno-how-long-ago is still in my draft, killed thousands of brain cells just to answer the first few question....>< style="color: rgb(0, 102, 0);">

1. Each player of this game starts off with 15 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.
2. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 15 weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.
3. At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.
4. No tags back!!

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1. i can eat up to 4 types of fruits a day ( highest record- 1 whole papaya, 1 fuji aple, 1 orange, 3-4 bananas)

2. i can sleep through the day when i'm terribly tired or that i'm in a bad mood ( 24 hours without waking up )

3. i can make everybody in a group to feel grumpy or emo when i'm in a bad mood ( which explains why i switch off my phone and lock my room door when i'm in one )

4. i have serious mood swing problems ( don't be surprise to find me happy and then mad or sad or even excited in a few seconds......one of a kind^^ )

5. i'm hyperactive =D ( my victims: becca, po chi...[mainly her =P] )

6. i'm currently crazy'ing over animations and mangas ( vampire knight....ahhhh!!!! cat street....ahhhh!!!!!! hell girl.....ahhhhh!!!!! )

7. i have an extreme sweet tooth

8. i don't wear specs......( extremely proud^^ the only 1 in the family, for now, that is....)

9. i used to be afraid to go near my room window, or to even pull open the curtains in my room for a few years after i had this crazy dream of a scary, crooked nosed witch that kidnapped me.

10. i dont eat pills.....to be more specific....i cant swallow pills ><

11. i love....simply love soft toys!!!!

12. i used to wear braces when i was in form 3 ( wearing *supposingly* retainer now, but, i dont really bother so it's a bit crooked. )

13. i still in a way live in my own small fantasy world

14. i show a different part of me to people who i somehow think will not meet again

15. i'm a computer illetrate. ( typed this post TWICE cause there was some technical problem )

btw, i DONT MAKE suffer(tags)::
everyone else whom i know that also hate tags....u're safe^^

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thus ends my post

P/S- Beijing Olympics opening ceremony 2 day ago was fantastic!!! especially the 29 'foot steps' and the torch lighting part

updates

Thursday today and going to have tuition in another 1 hour or so ( replacement ) so...just before the class with both my bro n mom not here at home......BLOG!!!!!

firstly, I'd like to boast a bit....just a tiny little bit....about the EST presentation on Tuesday. It was GREAT!!!! it was delayed for 2 whole weeks, the first week cause i left my notes i found on the net at home, ( my bad >< ) and the second week cause teacher was sick. ( i was so prepared >< ) anyhow, on Tuesday, the day right after the busy busy pameran day, we ( becca, me n po chi ) nearly totally forgot about the presentation......(for this case, i think it's me only who forgot) anyway, becca drew the picture of the long bone on the board before teacher come in. though i made some mistakes with those scientific term here and there, i think we did ok....except for the part where i changed the arrow of the word 'epiphisis' to 'metaphisis' and change it back again to 'epiphisis' and doubted and change again for i dunno how many times ><

teacher say it was a great presentation but she corrected a fact or two and commented that she learned a lot and wasn't sure if the facts were right as she doesn't know the facts herself. ( . . . . . . ) so...that was it, god knows why in the first place did i spend so much time on a presentation which will not be a part of any exam....== oh yeah, before i end the part of this post on the est presentation, i'd like to thank becca very much for helping out ( though this is a group project but... ) and also to po chi!!! who acted as modal when i turned her around(360 degrees...."u turned her for like 380 degrees lorh" commented becca) in front of the class showing which part of our bones are flat bones, long bones, irregular bones, semisamoid bones...ect. ( sorry ya =P )

wednesday.....everything was normal....class ended at 1.50....had tuition.........

thursday....today...i found out from a friend who sat in the same bus i was to school about what happened yesterday....2pm, at the staircase i walked pass with becca n yevone few minutes ago the previous day......a tragedy.......one that caused the stairs to be locked up....one that became the hot topic of the school for i-dunno-how-long, one that caused a few of my classmates a sleepless night, one that cause some people to reveal their hideous part of them......

i dont think i have any right though to reveal what actually happened, so dont ask....but this is something i will definitely remember though i wasn't involved.

PS. Remy the rat....is extreamly cute.......i brought it to school today...and it got more attention then i did!!! >< nvm, i do understand why....he's so....CUTE!!!! so...i'll forgive u Remy^^

PRS Race

first and foremost, not an event by form 4's prs.....but i cant remember the date >< though i remember quite well what happened =D

i came to school at 12pm, brought my god-knows-why-i-still-keep-it 'pom-pom', for the cheer performance later by every group. i'm in group 7, and is the unfortunate setiausuha...TT (all the 3 form 4's in each team has a post). anyway, reached there, said 'hi' and saw the performance they were getting ready. everything was quite okay, i gave my comments, gave a bit of suggestions, 'show off' a bit =P and we made a great team!!! yeah~~^^ . most teams skipped the 'stun' part, but our team came with a package of "small n energetic" "big and strong" and "tall and sporting" and best of all, they are all a good sport and is willing to make small sacrifices for the team. BONUS= most are active PRS members^^ so, we managed to do the 2 stuns as well as the 4 formations to result a great performance.

i was really happy by the end of the practice and acted a bit crazy....(don't mind me) we had lunch together and prepared for the performance. 15 minutes before performance, we, the 3 form 4's decided to join in the dance =D (we could choose not to)

though i keep quiet all this time, i was quite confident we could win the cheer. all of a sudden, it started raining, but the event went on as usual.....30 minutes later. it started with the cheer performance as the station games cant b held during the rain. though there was a little tech problem in the middle, everything else was quite good i dare say.

the station games were ok, but there was a little problem at the back where 4 teams clashed. in the end, the winner was chosen through a few basketball shoots...........we lost.

anyway, when the results was announced, we DID get the best cheer performance. we were all very happy when we went on stage to receive the hamper^^. we shared it among ourselves before we left.

notes= >< my abdomen muscle hurt like hell the next day

my com is bac......finally

Tadaa~~~i'm back.....after 2 weeks of torture TT, plenty to post about but too little time so, yeah, i'll probably shorten them n skip some of them.....btw, most of the events below were so....long ago, i cant recall when was it. =P

1) fantastic fall

will u believe it if i told u i half fall half slide past 2 metres? bet a dollar u wont believe *on second thoughts, i'm taking that back* nyway, i did. unbelievable huh? well, believe it, cause i did, ask becca, ask elaine, ask po chi, they saw. what actually happened was, that morning, (the morning school reopened) when we came to our class, a surprise awaited us.....the class was empty....so...the whole class spent the first 2 periods finding can-be-used tables n chairs. we searched the whole block-E, no luck, so we tried other blocks. as we were going down the stairs(last two flights)...*time slows down* i tripped, was about to fall when i grabbed hold of a rusty black pole beside me, tried to pull myself up when i fell AGAIN because i wasn't steady and skidded through the corridor but was able to use my hand as a brake just in time to save myself from having my face hit the floor.

first comment i got? " you ok?" yeah, that's normal. second comment "wow, did u fall? i thought u were doing a performance or some sort *giggles* " . . . . . . . . THAT, was cruel >< oh well, luckily no bruise or anything. ( dun ask me how i did it )

2) that day, i cant rmb which day, becca was telling me about her nightmare. So, since she told me her's, i thought it only fair to tell her mine too. BUT.....no way i'm telling it here. but since then, i've always thought....why am i the only one who get such odd dreams? oh well, as long as it doesn't haunt me again, i'm perfectly fine.

3) another that day, that i cant remember, quek was asking me...."can u immagine how u were when u were in form 1?" i was dumbstruck, but before i know it, i think i mumbled something about, "yeah, i knew i changed...." after that, they( quek, qi.... those with me since form 1 ) started laughing and teasing about those really 'fish' stuff i said and did when i was in form 1 and 2. the whole week after that, i kept thinking....how much did i change? how did i change? was these changes good? or bad?

eventually, i asked my friends who knew me quite well. i got all sorts of funny answers. some told me i didn't change, just that i got naughtier ( so that's bad ). i asked my parents too, thier answers? cant rmb... Still, i knew i changed, even if nobody in this world ever realized that. i knew a lot more thing that i never knew in form 1. i knew this world isn't a fantasy world where everyone live together in peace and harmony. i knew that in the REAL world, the world i never did like to admit i was living in, has plenty of sad stories. i knew that i can be happier than i ever was if i learn to accept the world as it is. i knew that friends, really spice up your life. i also learn that friends, can break your heart as easily as they want.

in a way, all the things that happened, was, as some people would say, a kind of training, or lesson...the hard way. changes are hard, as they bring a lot of sorrow and tears in the process. but in the end, i dare say i'm more matured than before and is more willing to face the world.

3).....actually, i have plenty....PLENTY to say, to share but kinda forgot, so, that's about it

oh yeah, something i remembered reading from our English litriture, ' we can only make our decisions based on past experience, present circumstances and hope for the future...' very true, as i can say that i hold quite a lot of hope for the future, a future where everyone is happy and content. therefore, i make choices which i think, and hope, MAKES a difference.

computer

definition for 'computer' is, something not many gen Y can live without. so....i have no idea how in the world did i do it^^ i did not even TOUCH the computer for....a whole long WEEK!!!! congratulate me please =D

my old com, burned.....== yeah, it burned. my bro said he smelled something burning last monday and~~~ the monitor died.......TT my bro was so mad( cause his cabal was still on ) he hit the com dunno how many times.....at 5.30am( he was playin com the whole night, not that he woke up THAT early ) that my whole family woke up.

when asked what happened, he said the com burned n now, he cant do his project...(yeah right...==) my mom's first reaction? good lorh, ' dai sei ' ( serve u right ) who ask u to on com all day without off'ing for a few months? always oni off monitor....

right....so now, u might just b wondering why am i even blogging now? or how am suppose to be blogging now.....the thing is

my dad bought a new monitor!!!!!!^^ arh~~~~~~~~~~^^ extreamly nice, flat screen =D ( for those of u who has been using flat screen since dunno when, dont splash cold water on me == i'm still in a terribly good mood )

well, that's about it......oh, jh, about the tag, am working on it, but maybe not so fast, will take some time....sorry ya ><

anime

i just finished watching 'hell girl season 2' animation which i borrowed from lee xian( a really sweet girl, but she'll ask me to go die if she hears me say that, i have no idea why ) 3 hours ago................the ending? it's sad....

she died in the end, died being hit by the residents of the city......sad TT......i was crying even though i watched it twice, my younger bro was crying with me too, but only when he watched it the first time. ( i didn't even realise till the show was over and he asked me if i cried )

to all of u who probably haven't heard of it before or dont bother to watch this animation....please allow me to summuries this for u.

yanma ai ( that's what the subtitle says ) is the hell girl, every day during midnight, anybody who has someone they hate very much can get through a website, on the net to connect with hell girl. if the person doesn't really hate the other person that much, or that the person is going to this site for other reasons other than taking revenge, the person will not be able to get through. when the person gets through, he/she types in the name of the person he/ she hates and hell gir will appear. she will then hand the 'client' a straw dolly and explains the conditions....those who curses others to hell, will also end up in hell too. meaning, if u ask the help of hell girl to send someone to hell, when u die, u will go to hell too, but it's after u die. the contract will not be made till the red string on the dolly is pulled.

in the first season, those who were sent to hell was understandable. like there was this ep when a high school girl sent a vet to hell cause he doesnt really care bout the sick animals unless it was going to make him any richer or any more famous. though i find sending ppl to hell like that is still kinda selfish, and reminds me of death note ( i support L by the way ) but i dont think that it is worth it. i mean, these ppl who do bad things are gonna be sent to hell after all, but it's after they r dead, so y send yourself to hell too just so that he/she dissapears earlier?

near the middle of season one, a reporter gets in the story. somehow, his daughter has hell girl's eye, means she can sometimes see what hell girl sees. so, the reporter with the help of his daughter, tries to stop ppl from sending others to hell.

in the end of season 1, hell girl's past was told, how she become hell girl....thanks to an idiotic hell boy who could bring back the deepest part of ur memory that u try to forget. So, hell girl used to be a normal girl, with red eyes....all the villagers thinks she's a devil, but she has a friend, a boy who believes she's innocent. the villagers find ways and reason to kill her. in the end, they tied thier whole family, blindfolded them and trew them into a hole. Ai's blindfold was lose, and saw herself being burried alife.....by the boy she thought was her friend..

i have no idea how, but she came back to lifeand burned the whole village. everyone was killed, except for the boy who managed to escape. the king of hell treaten to put all her loved one into the darkness forever if she doesn't become hell girl.

apparently, the reporter is the boy's great-great-great( dunno how many great )........grandson. so, when hell girl was in a bad mood ( i think ) she gave the reporter's daughter a straw dolly and ask her to sent her father to hell, telling her the whole story how her mother died. Ai's plot nearly succeded but the little girl forgave her father when her father appologised and cried in regret.

hell girl saw and her heart soften. her hate for the villager that killed her kinda reduced, and she returned to hell to do her job.

THAT is season 1....as for season 2.....it's a long story but my bro is nagging me to let him use the com so.....c how larh, anyone intrested? i'll tell u personally^^

snakes o.o ( part 2 )

today, when i was busy minding my own buisness......a green snake slithered into my front door!!!! ><

.........................k, it was a lie =P i was too bored okay.......

this was what actually happened.....

this morning, when my mom was teaching my brother past perfect and present perfect tense or something like that, my brother was, as usual finding ways to escape. and so....

my bro: mom mom wait, let me say first, let me say first
mom : u want to say something, say it during ur break time, dont interupt me when i'm teaching
my bro: but mom~~~ *shaking n pulling my mom's hand*
mom : no but's, now...past perfect tense are used when.......... for example.........
my bro: but mom, u dont understand *interupting*
mom : dont understand WHAT? *starting to lose her patience to a noisy child*
my bro: daniel say he saw a snake skin in the tree outside.
mom : really? *stares at me*
my bro: yala....and then hor......*continue saying alot of things that i didn't bother to listen*
me : oh my gosh.....so that's what happen to the birds eggs.....*putting the newspaper down*
mom : what bird? oh, u mean that bird, i totally forgot about it.....
me : ....remember the last time i told u the bird's egg dissapeared? the second batch? the batch i didn't even had time to take photo of? when i peeked in, there wasn't even a single trace of shells there....i ven took a photo of the empty nest....
mom : so u mean the snake actually slithered all the way to that bamboo plant?
me : uh huh.....
mom : .........* giving me the omg look*
me : oh my gosh...i saw the two yellow birds that grew up in our house there ytd,in the tree
mom : making a nest?
me : *nod*
mom : *sigh* i hope the birds are smart enough....anyway, from now on, close the glass every night.....just in case

i hope the birds safe.....and that the snake wont come here again ><

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omg omg omg omg omg.............i broke something, AGAIN >< .....and it's the second time i did it.....my mom's already in a bad mood, she's so gonna explode >< plus, it's my dad's stuff, now even my dad's gonna kill me

help~~~!!! anyone know how to cure butter-fingers? ><

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the new pencil box my mom bought me two weeks ago, which costs around rm30....is gone TT
my mom was so upset and so am i. i have like 3 g-2 gel pens inside, and all my other precious mechanical pencils, pens which i've had with me since i was in primary school....all gone!!! T^T
the other pencils, erasers, gel pens inside was quite new too....i bought them for the exams...
i guessed i left it in school after the kursus prs, and since amy was going to school on saturday, i asked her to help me find it. she went to school all 9 sth in the morning to help me find it (touched) but it wasn't found any where.....

waah~~!!!! my new, nice pencil box with my precious stationeries.... gone!!!!

last minute preparations for kursus tahunan prs 2008

these events took place from 11am on 24th of may 2008, till 7am 26th of may 2008.

i dont really know how to start, but on 24th, it was more of last minutes discussion, who do what. KL thought that our detective game lack of characters, as there are only 4 main characters, so she asks us to gather around to think of a new 1.

the ajk's indirectly put us in charge in making the whole thing again, which kinda frustrates me cause i ended up writing everbody's ( 11 character's ) script, which took me till 4am in the morning.( i dont even work THIS hard for exams >< ) why? cause those who were helping with the story could not come the next day, which is also the last day to prepare, so since i was coming they trew all the script writing, the crime scene.....ect to me. i was so busy writing the scripts n thinking of the evidence found in the crime scene, i took my precious note book out with me for dinner to write while eating. my family wasn't very happy bout this, cause they say that i shouldn't be working so hard on sth even the ajk's dont bother about, i dont get any credit for this anyway. nevertheless, i finished by the next morning, though i knew what my family was telling me during dinner was true. but i did call becca that night to complain a bit, made me feel better. thanks becca^^ the next day, 25th, was also a busy day. so busy in fact, that nobody was free enough to hear me explain the new detective story. ( will post another blog on the story) everybody was getting thier own stations ready, though there were a few stations which needed extra people. for example, the maze, which uses 2 classrooms. ( meaning *destroying* the board in between the classes ) oh yeah, a form 4 prs who never came for any of our form 4 kursus meeting came, quite a surprise. by morning 26th of may, all the tougher to make stations were ready, everybody was under quite a lot of pressure as all of us wanted it to be as perfect as possible, i personally thought nothing would have gone wrong, but everyone else was expecting something to go wrong, but hoped nothing would. Y invited us to try out the maze they just finished building, excited, i tried it out with E. the maze was amazing, they made it real nice, but...it was 6am in the morning when i tried it out and the lights weren't switched on as the switch was...some where in the middle of the maze. it was erm, scary.....the classroom curtain swept pass me when the wind was blowing. THAT kinda freaked me. i made Y promise that he wont play any prank on us, but he added that if anything did happen, scream.

anyway, nothing happened and y came in to join us in finding our way out of the maze some time later.

at around 7 am, the empty hall was half full, the buku aturcara(diffrent compared to the pass few years but nice) was given out at the registration counter. all teams started to prepare for thier bentangan(where the groups explain thier group name, tepukan.....and will be asked a lot of questions)

we were prepared with thier breakfast and the kursus tahunan prs 2008 SMKSS by the form 4's prs started with CH and CC as host at 8am.(supposingly 7:30am, but, oh well...)

Theme? Superheroes.

PS. our form 4 prs T-shirt this year, is so...nice^^

teacher's day

as always, late post, so......drift yourself back to....23rd of may 2008, friday.

teacher's day, not something i look forward to, except for being able to ponteng school that day, that is. =D
today, there was suppose to be quite a lot of plans, but all cancelled last minute. but not last minute enough for me to ponteng school though. xxx, whom i haven't spoken to in a long time called me, n ask if i was going to go to school, after i said yes, she immediately ask if i can help her pass up her moral project, which was due tomorrow. so, i said ok.
few minutes ltr, amy called to tell me that our plans for tomorrow's cancelled.
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so...even though there was nth to do, i still had to go to school, to pass up other ppl's project.

luckly the hari guru event's werent as boring as it usually is.

2nd term exams officially over

well, erm, as usually, another late post.
lets pretend u r reading this post on....22nd of may 2008....is it? anyway, it's a thursday, and the sun's shinning, the birds r chirpping, i even saw some birds having sand bath *i think* in the sand pit. ^^
just as i was happily day dreaming bout how to enjoy my holidays in the packed class room filled with students of other classes, (due to accounts exam [poor becca =P]) , pn.buvanese came in. after being persuaded by some add-math genius, she announced that she'll return the add math exam papers.
i was too busy reading manga at that time,( the manga borrowed frm wan yee, ''fei bu qi de mo nv'' is real nice xD, n thier clothes r extreamely cute =D )i didn't know what happened untill po chi asked me bout my add math result.
i squeezed in the crowd and waited fo my paper. honestly, i was quite confident this time, as i knew how to do most of the questions.
i got my paper....i double check to confirm that it is really my paper....and went back to read comic books. *sad music in the back ground*
........well, i barely pass, but i did, and the marks were 20 over marks less then the first exam.
i had no idea what actually happened and how did i manage to get such results but, i not really satisfied about one of the questions where i got the right answers, and all the steps correct, but, i skipped one step. because of that, teacher gave me a big 0 for the whole thing. that question costs 4 marks.
suddenly i wasn't that happy anymore.
but, holidays are holidays, i kinda forgot bout the exams result the next day. why? cause i have prs kursus tahunan to worry about........

2nd class party

was held on wednesday, yesterday...

as usuall, the cream trowing, sweets feast was unavoidable. =D

class party was something like a 'wish u guys good luck in the second term exam' thing, by our lovely class teacher^^

and also to thank our chinese teacher who's not gonna teachea us next semester TT

nyway, gave her a thank you card and messed around with the cake.

few girls escaped before the rest of the class was trapped in to 'play' the cream game. Becca could have been saved from the attacks, but she was too busy reading Star Two in a corner, and was noticed.

unlucky me was used as a revenge item for those who got whipped around with cream and couldn't counter.

P/S...exam week ><

snakes?? o.o

last week or so, i was just telling becca how happy i was that the bird came back, to make a new nest^^ then yesterday, my younger brother told me the eggs dissapeared.....!? o.o he even told me that the mother bird must have took it away to it's new nest....

i obviously didn't believe him. how is it possible that a bird as big as my palm( i don't have giant hands btw ) with it's tiny legs(?) possibly transport it to another place? its like asking u to carry a stone as big as a chair using ur....erm....mouth? without any help. even if ur teeth r strong enough, how r u gonna carry it?

anyway, it's impossible.

so, after dinner, i quietly made my way to it's nest. the bird wasn't there. n to mention it, i dont think i heard any birds chirping lately nor have i seen the mother bird flying home to it's nest lately. this wasn't good, cause according to my my past experince, the mother bird will usually fly back to sleep at around 5pm. latest by 6pm. it's around 9pm now.

i wasn't tall enough to take a good view of the nest, so i got a chair n managed my way up. suddenly, sth moved around in between the flower pots. i didn't really bother. so i peeked in to the nest.

the eggs weren't there.

i couldn't believe my eyes, i mean, how could it just disappear? we have seen a few casses where the mother bird flies off leaving the nest n eggs behind, but never seen before a case where the eggs dissapear totally. i even got myself a torch but couldn't find any trace of broken egg shells. it disappeared totally.

i was kinda freaked out because the first possibility that came to my mind was that somehow, an animal manage to get it's way up to eat the 2 eggs. and the first animal that came to my mind that does this kind of thing, is a snake....

something moved in between the flower pots again. immediately, i got myself off the chair, and ran into the house. top speed.

i hope i dont see any snakes ><

bio peka

i forgot...hehe, last thursday....was it? anyway, our bio experiment was a huge sucess, thanks to chi^^

the experiment was bout the enzymes, to prove that the enzymes in our saliva changes starch to glucose. the model experimental answer was to take 8 minutes for the first reaction, but we took only 3. that was so fast, but the teacher did mentioned that it could also be that the starch was quite diluted, but that was still fast!!

well, quite busy lately so...till then^^

P/S ...becca....chi....sorry ya....dun think i can pass up my work by tmr ><
just recovered^^ from flu n sore throat, yeah^^

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today's lunch sucks cause.........i cooked it with my dad xD

dad bought all the stuff to cook yesterday, though i hav no idea why...i went into the kitchen to have a drink this afternoon and was asked to fry the eggs...eh???

having no idea what was happening except that my dad was preparing the ham n sausages while i fried the eggs. Dad was like checking on me n complaining that i put too little oil to fry the eggs( ya meh? ) so i added oil n...." wat r u trying to do???u think the oil free gah??".........that was my mom, she came in to check n scolded me for adding oil...haih.

the ham turned out really oily, but i didn't dare to tell dad, n i didn't want mom to c everything so oily, so i usedthe kitchen roll n sucked off the oil on the plate n the excess oil on every slice of ham...haih....

dad added cubed potatoes into the baked beans..."dy, u have to cook the potatoes first before u cook the baked beans.." i think he did cook the potatoes first before adding the baked beans...?

the potatoes? turned out crunchy....i think u understand huh? even i, a potato lover didn't eat a lot of it.....

u know, mom's cooking r still the best^^

sports day

woke up at 4am, stared at my room ceiling and said, well today's the day where 4 months of practice is gonna pay off. got up, went to bathroom, brush teeth....blablabla......then, as i was tying my hair, and suddenly ouch....my abdomen muscle hurts....guessed i practiced my bridge a bit too much yesterday...

went to school at 5am, raining, jam all the way to school. reach a 5.30am. 1 of the girls ran over and ask ''where's ur skirt?'' ''in my bag?'' ''give it to me now!!'' right, cool, sure, why'd u need it for anyway? then they told me, we need to cut n sew it, now. WHAT??? what 4? Cause teacher complain the skirt too ''tight'' , have to snip off one of the sides so it's not so tight n also to show that there's another pair of thights inside( it's the kind of skirt with a pair or thights inside ), not just the skirt.....swt....goverment school, malaysia...i mean, who(normal thinking people) would dance without another pair of shorts inside if u are wearing a skirt? (unless u have other motives ==)

so we ( me n another few girls ) had to rush, n surprise, i just realised, not many girls can sew. i thought everybody knew how to sew....properly, with the traditional needle n thread (n my mom complains i cant sew)....then, we changed into our "uniform''? (combination of last year's blue house shirt n the last minute sew-ed skirt) looks ok i guess. As i went back, another girl told me "tie your hair higher!!" huh? isn't this high enough? i just had a hair cut last week, how high do u want me to tie my hair? so i tied again, n was just about to do sth else when she came running to me with a blue-air pollution chemical.....hair spray. NO!!!!!!!! i hate this kind of thing, having chemicals put on my precious hair to damage n harden it, is a big no-no. but she ran after me with that chemical n shouted "spray few hours cant do any damge to your hair la!!!" but it can do damage to the ozone layer....(since when am i so environmentle friendly?) she caught me (slow runner) n sprayed that thing at my hair, i shut my eyes n feel that thing going through my hair...yuck... they even wnted to put makeup for us....the rest of them was ok with it, but i rubbed mine off immediatelly, how can i stand having powdery stuff going into my skin and dunno do what knid of damage to my precious, pimple-free, smooth, perfect skin texture???

i changed my shoe on the bus on the way to cheras football stadium, (brought 2 cause was raining n din want my shoe for cheer to b wet) got into our lines for pembarisan (marching). watched other houses get ready. Red was....all the people wear the kind of straw hat u c farmers wear in China but it's painted red. Green was even cooler, they made some kind of bamboo seat like the kind u c the king sit on in olden days in china? yup, tat's the kind. then somebody sits on it with 4 dressed up sakai's carrying that bamboo seat with the person on top. the bamboo thing was even covered in leaves...

Blue house was the first house to march out. i actually think we did ok, but after singing the lagu wilayah n lagu sekolah in the hot 9am sun, we marched to the front n keluar baris. Immediately, our commander cried, she was so upset, she thinks it's not neat enough...

my parents say they want to come, so i asked our cheerleader's ketua, she says our performance is probably at 10am, so i sms'ed them. they came at 10, punctual. our performance was at 11am....

green house cheer went first, all the other cheerleaders(other house) cheered for them. i didn't, cause i was basically too busy panic-ing n memorising my sequence. u do anything wrong ltr, u'll get cursed the whole year, that's the world of cheerleader. i dont blame them actually. yellow house was next, i was still too busy panic-ing.

"cool....relax....just do your best....u've been practicing for a long time, just do this like how u did during rehersal. " i told myself, then i stared at one of my fellow cheerleader n hugged her, i was shaking.

''.....pasukan sorak rumah biru!!!" i turned, kept my mind blank, forgot for an while about the pain in my musle n ran out with everybody else. near the middle, i actually started to relax, and enjoy this historicle moment. during the second fomation, where i was required to do bridge, from standing position in the middle was actually easy. but i was worried i couldn't do it last minute last night that i practiced my bridge for over 10 times. now i have problem with my muscle, it hurts to even laugh.

so when it was time for the second formation, i held my breath n just bend down, surprisingly, it didn't hurt, i even went a bit too down that my hand had to bend n push back up. everything else went smoothly.

we had high hopes cause every other cheerleader teams made mistakes. if we win cheer, blue will get the overall champion. red had 12 points more than blue, yello n green had 100+ points less than blue. so, our main competition now, is red.

when the time came for the results, all houses cheer are required to stand in the middle, under 1 o'clock sun, n wait for the pengetua to talk, the PIBG chairman to talk then they'll anounce the results. After that, the ketua scout will lead the 'sorakan' to end this event. which is 3 times of cheering ''hip hip hooray!!''

...........bla bla bla '' pemenang untuk pembarisan rumah ialah....rumah hijau!!!'' .........i could see red house commender crying, and our commender staring into space n at the trophy she thought she could finally hold....green house commender ran up, got the trophy and hugged and kiss and show it to all the members.

J said, i joined cheer since form 3, every year, we get last place, tis is my last year in this school...i really hope there's a change.....

B says, blue house is no loser, u guys r good, on year 19xx blue house won overall champion for 5 years in a row.....

''pemenang untuk pasukan sorak rumah ialah rumah............'' biru, biru, biru, biru......i could hear all of us praying....

''kuning!!!!!!!!'' yeah!!!!!!..............screams of delight was heared. we lost....again.....

red got the overall champion.

blue....got nothing........

the ketua scout in front raised his hands and said ''hip hip hooray!!'' i really felt like just putting everything down n just...go home....but my hands went up with everone else, but i din't say a word.

during the wilayah song again....tears rolled, i bit my lips, shut my eye n told myself. this isn't the way u should act, yellow won, u should b happy for them....the song ended. we went back, took a few shots. i spotted my mom n went home, leaving the happy teams behind. The rest of blue house was being a real sport by joining in red house to run the field after winning.

i always respected people with good sportsmenship, so, like someone once said...life goes on, no matter how dissapointed or depressed u r, u cant turn time. if the judges think yellow house was worth the trophy, then i sincerlly congratulate u.

updates ><

as usual....tis post is late. BUT, i have a really good reason this time. i was grounded...basically for no reason ><.


1) well, we, becca me n noyako, finally started our long delayed chinese novel bout a few people with special abillities. which, thanks to me, is gonna be short >< they write like 6 pages for one chapter, i only manage to write 1 and a half >< BUT, i assure u, its going to b good^^. ( with our wild imaginations, how can it not turn out good? ) for the sneak peek, go rebecca's blog ^^


2)last friday, mr.lee, during chemistry lesson was teaching about i-forgot-what, but i think it had to do with chemicals larh xp, so he said he'll let us try the sodium+water experiment. it was so cool...but i seriously thought at first that each group was going to do an individual explosion then after class, the lab assistant took a piece of sodium from a bottle of oil n drip in a basin. I thought i was going to explode immidiately, like what u watch on movies, where the person like very yeng like tat walk away frm the direction of the explosion. but apparently, it din't turn out like that. the lab assistant put the piece of sodium in the basin of water in the middle oh the badminton court. nothing happened for the first few seconds, then, it suddenly flash in a yellow flame, (sodium floats on water) and started a sizzling sound. juz when u think nothing's gonna happen....BOOM!!!! it explodes, catching everybody offgaurd, causing lot of people to scream. (mostly girls) this continued for six times. on the third time, it exploded softly, but its pieces went flying all over, causing it to explode again. kinda like fireworks.


3) results out....i got top 10 [ =D ].....from the bottom.....argh.....this is bad. havent got top 10 from the bottom since...standard 1. at the most oso number 12, usually top 10, or 5......sad......huge impact


conclusion....sleep now, it's mornin, school tmr, need to b energized (is there such word?), main reason.... my eyebags r gettin worst >< have to sleep. Till then.

first term exams are now offcially....over

exams are over, time for results...TT.....i'm dead.....

surprisingly, i knew how to do my add math, BUT, i was out of time. when teacher anounced there was 5 minutes left, i scanned through the paper.....OMG...there was 2 questions with 4 marks, another 2 questions with 5 marks and....1 question with 10 marks....which i haven't touch. ( cold sweat ) immediately, i did the 10 mark first, it was about drawing the graph, i only managed to finish completing the square, write the minimum point, simply sketch something and time was up.

i was quite disapointed, cause i actually knew how to do most of them, but tried to do the tougher ones which spent 15 minutes and got 0 marks for. my results came out, and...i passed, terribly, C6. sounds so pathetic, there are crazy ppl in my class how got 92, for add math. So, as i say, this class, has serious mental problems, they probably just escaped from tanjung rambutan...who knows? lol

then, there was math. which i quite enjoyed, except the significant figure part, forgotten totally. the i-dont-know-what-went-wrong-with-him teacher, marked diffrently for the same answer. some got correct and some got wrong. ermm, mister, this is a 4 marks each questions, and i am positive that my answers are correct, so please remark. Of course, it wont b fair to us whom he marked wrong when it's correct, and those who got wrong and he excidentally gave correct. But, who was willing to give up thier 4 marks and admit teacher marked wrongly by giving them correct? Basically, i cant do a thing except gatting a few other ppl's papers who had the same problem as mine to b remarked. Well, this would probably b my only A1 subject with 80 sumthin. Remember the crazy guy that got 92 marks for add math? he got 100 for math....betul-betul mental problem.

then....my english....sad....i din get A1....got A2, 70 something oni....so was my EST....also sad...ngam ngam get A1, also 70 something....the only two subjects i thought could pull me up, turn out to be no big deal....i was shocked actually, my EST got A1, cause i didn't finish on time, something happened during exam which took up half an hour of my exam time, so i blanked 3 questions, which total up to b 6 marks...

well, i dont know how did my other subjects did, but it's quite early in the mornin now, and i need to go to school in 4 hours time. So, that would b all for now.

p/s..sorry becca bout tis mornin, congrates on ur EST and BI though
..now that exams r over, the activities all rush in, it'll b busy

historical day...for the family^^

actually this happened like....3 days ago? yeah, i posted this late, as usuall =p


so, what happened?? well....a bird in my house laid two eggs, and it hatched!!!! fyi, they r wild. ( juz a little history here^^, but it wont b as boring as our normal history....this bird is actually the fifth bird building a nest in out dunno call what plant, the third bird which laid it's egg, and the FIRST bird which hatched it's eggs =D [ supposingly second, but the first was eaten by stray cats TT ] ) i'd also like to add that, the first few, were sparrows, but this is a yellow 1!!! i mean, i dont usually see yellow birds in this area, so....


anyway, the day before yesterday, i was screaming and jumping away when it hatched. ( i checked the next every hour =P ) it was....not how i thought i would look like. it didn't had any fur, not like those comic books where first born birds are all furry and kawaii, and it was also kinda black n pink.


Every half an hour after it hatched, my younger brother n i, took turns peeking at it. It didn't of course change much, but it was fun. I mean, there is a living thing in your house, and it's growing at a pace that...u can actually see the whole process.


one week later, i checked, the featheres started growing but not complete. And the eye's opened!!! it's so cute, the two pair of black eye staring at u, sometimes screaming too. but i didn't dare to go too near when the mother/father bird was around.


Another week later, there was a perfect set of feathers. the mother bird didn't come back at nights to warm the birdlings anymore, they were too big, though it still came back to feed it. the next day...which was the fifteenth day since the eggs hatched, both the birds moved out to a nearby branch to sleep. my nothing-better-to-do brother used news paper to fan it. it was shocked, and tried flewing off, but nearly got itself squashed. Carefully, i picked it up, which was stiff due to the shock, and tried flying off again. my brother thought it was really fun to have a bird in your hands, and picked the other up...he was quite rough with it and didn't get a good hold of the bird. it flew to the neighbours house. i left the other in the nest, and tried to spot the 1 in my neighbours house. i was worried...the bird cant fly properly yet, and there are a lot of stray cats in this area....that bird in my neighbours house, is definately not as smart as tweedy.

Few minutes later, we (my whole family ) decided we cant do anything about it. after going in the house, a funny thing happened...my neighbour's son, creept out, and put the birdling in our house, hoping we didn't realise. Aparentlly, my neighbours thought the birds were dirty, and had adviced us before to shoo the bird away. We, thought it was fascinating, to see something grow day after day. So, when they left the bird in our house, we were actually overjoyed. We tried putting them ( the two birds ) safely in thier nest, but they keep flying off, in the end, for the sake of thier safety, we caught them and put them in a temporary cage. ( birds always fly to our house, so we always have a place to put them in for the night if they [ other birds ] are hurt. =D ).

my bro let it off, without telling me, he said something....suddenly, something came flowing through my mind...

how the mother bird come n feed it's young every few hours, with a grasshopper, worms, dunno-what fruit or something like that. it's actually disgusting to see a worm wriggling in the mother's (or father, i dunno who) beack, but after a while thinking....i....actually felt something.....both the mother and father bird took turns coming back with something for thier young, and stared at me when i'm near.(which makes it hard for me to photograph thier growing process) i suddenly thought of how hard is it for parents with kids (expecially since all three has thier own sets of problems) to raise thier...child? anyway...the bird was a fast forward version of how kids grow up. To begin with, the mother hatched the eggs for two whole weeks, after building the nest for another week, when the birds were juz born, they couldn't see anything...they thought, everyone who came near was not gonna hurt them, and innocently opened thier beacks to all, expecting u to feed it when i'm actually photographing it ( why am i the bad guy here? ) . then when the birds opened it's eye's, it started to understand that...the world is not that perfect...even if something came near, it doesnt mean it's gonna help ( or feed, in this case.. ) u , it's probably taking advantage ( or photo's, in this case also ) of u [which was y it started screaming at me when i came near ] , the parents could only see from far and couldn't do a thing. ( they cant like, fly over n peack me, rite? ) then...it's the teenage time, the feathers all grew, and it was ready to fly. it thought it flew well, and ended up nearly squashed under my mom's car tyres. ( lucky thing i spoted it before my mom drove in the porch ) at this time, the parents cant help anymore, the birds would have to face the world...with some help ( me!! i picked it up and put it back in the nest ) but it didn't appreciate whatever help given to it, it flew away from the nest, and nearly had it's legs squashed.....( again ) finally being in a cage for a whole night, it learnt to fly...properly...the mother bird tried to peack a way for it's young to come out....

so, at times....when u thought that u could handle things on your own and u dont need ur parents anymore or something happened between u guys n u think they dont care anymore, u r actually quite wrong...

the next morning, when my bro was sure it was save, no stray cats around, my bro let it off...the mother/father bird was near...i didn't have a chance to say my last goodbye's...i was in school at that time.....i could imagine though, the beutifull picture of the mother/father bird, flying off together with it's young...well grown...into the clear blue skies, leaving it's childhood ( birdlinghood? ) memories back here, for me to remember it by.....

it's actually 25 of march when it left.

p/s- i really miss them...wish they'll come back to visit sometimes after spending 16 days here

kerja amal

This was actually quite unexpected, during recess on Tuesday, C suddenly asked me, '' Want to do kerja amal together or not? we r all going'' i wasn't sure whether i should go, cause i was actually planing to do my moral's kerja amal ( a really stupid, useless project by the way, but i have to admit, if it wasn't because of this project, i probably would never have know what was happening outside my small tiny fantasy world) with interact or prs club, but, well, who know what might happen right? for all u know, the teacher will suddenly ask us to pass up our project the next day....well, then i'm done for. So....i agreed.


i told my mom about this, she agreed too, and so, i found myself at this..i dont know wat place, which was for children with mental problem....( i thought this was suppose to b a trip to an orphanage?)


i went there, and was shocked to find out that....the things i do, the things WE ALL do everyday, which we think is based on common sense is actually NOT based on common sense to a child with those kind of problems. Firstly, i was shocked to find a boy eating rice...rice that isn't boiled( which i managed to stop), then i saw another boy, who went around with a bottle n hitting people with the bottle after pouring the water on people....ect....( i dont really want to continue)


Back to the main purpose we came here...we asked the 'kakak' in charged if there was anything we could do, she told us another group of ppl came a week ago, so the house is still quite clean....WHAT TO DO???? wat's going to happen to our kerja amal??? there's about 30 ppl here, wat photo's r we going to put in? so, we took photo's of us fakingly sweep the floor, wipe the gates...i didn't realy like the idea, so i took only 1 photo, just for the project's sake. (probably will do another REAL one later)



Later, after the photo taking, we tried comunicating with the kids. i managed to understand what one of them were trying to tell me. ( he was 19, but i thought he was younger than me ><) i asked him a few questions n heard a heart-breaking story. the way he told it, was like it was the most normal thing in the world...yet, it's....



he spoke to me in cantonese, i was curious as to where did he learn how to speak that language as the rest of the kids( erm, actually most r older than me but... ) there only understands malay. after a few attempts, i finally understood what he said. he goes home once a week..........what? he has a family, so why is he here?? i mean, y isn't his family member looking after him? y is he left here?? though i was speechless, i continued my conversation with him. he then continued, most of the kids here have families, but r left here till no-idea-when. though i understand that it could b hard for the parents of these kids to accept the fact that thier child turned out like that, but, the child is still thiers, even if they do sent thier child to places like this, thinking it would b for the best, the least they could do is to visit thier child more often....



some time later, as i was wandering around, i saw another little girl sitting near a table. i talked to her, but she only smilled sweetly at me without a word. when some of the boys informed me that they brought some colour pencils n papers for them to draw, i tried to get the little girl to go out with me outside, where all the other kids gathered to do colouring. i managed to get her to stand up, but she couldn't move, i didn't understand. suddenly, i saw what was holding her back. she was tied to the table by a rope on her right leg.



the 'kakak' explained that she'de run away if her legs were not tied up. the girl continue smilling at me....she had a sweet smile. i was reluctant to leave her behind alone even when everyone was asked to gather outside. WELL...something embarassing happened n my first reaction was to turn my head n immediately ran out. my face was flushed, n i thought i even had fever, i was so shocked i was actually crying.[i've never been that shock or embarrased in my life before to make my face so red ] my frens were laughing away when they knew wat happened ( so bad == ). later, after everyone gathered outside, one of the girls explained that we weren't suppose to go into the other part of the house (where i went just now)

as there was actually a girl there with hits anybody who goes near.



i was shocked to hear that. but becaused of what happened earlier, i sweared i was not going in there again. then the smilling face of the little girl floated past my mind again. i was so tempted to bring the little girl a pencil n paper to draw on, but....i didn't want to go back there. in the end, i managed to pull a friend to come along with me(who later ran off). the 'kakak' told me more bout the little girl while i drew pictures with her. it seems that her other few siblings has the same problem. except for the eldest sister, all of them has problems. but they r sent to different centres in the country. her parents are divorced. the father looks after the eldest sister n come to visit his child every year.......the little girl smiles at me again....at least, she looks happy......



i heard some noise, picked up my courage n walked further into the house. i saw the room, where the sound came from. it was a terrible sight...a girl was chained in metal chains n locked to the wall at the corner of the empty room. she spotted me, n did somthing i never immagined. she sang to me...i was tongue-tied. so i sat at the other corner of the room and listened. when i came back to my senses, i tried talking to her in every language i knew. she continued singing. i was actually shocked at the poor room conditions, i mean, if i was tied here n was asked to live the life she lived, even i would have gone crazy....the kakak heard her singing.

she came into the room and talked to me. apparently, tis girl was here for quite some time, meaning few years. she'd break the windows with nothing but her bare hand when she's in a bad mood. sometimes, she even breaks the metal chains on her legs and attack people. then the girl stopped singing. i tried to go a little nearer. the kakak didn't stop me, she only ask me to be careful.

i moved slowly. Suddenly, without warning, she pounced at me. i had no idea what happened, but i somehow managed to dodged the 'attack'. i was kinda shock myself, before i knew it, the second round of pounding came. this time, i not only dodged the 'attack', i raced to the door. still stunned, about what happened. ( i was quite shocked that i dodged that instead of my usual got attack oso dunno what happened situation, so....round of applause please =D )

the kakak actually laughed. she told me that it's ok edi, she cant go that far with the chain on her legs. (are u kidding me? she jumped from one end of the room to another, thats like 2 meters, and she could have jumped another 2 meters if it wasn't because of the chain. ><) so how'd u bring food for her, or where does she sleep, she can't sleep on the floor her whole life? i asked, masa makan, saya letak pinggan tu kat sana, dia mau makan, dia makan lah, masa tidur pun sama, saya letak tilam kat sana, dia akan tidur lepas letih... she answered calmly.

......shock.......

after everything's over, there was a mix feeling. i felt lucky that i'm born fine n considered healthy? but, i did feel sad for the unfortunate ones. i'm sure they didn't want things the way it is too, but they had no choice. i pity thier parents too. i mean, who wont b upset if thier child turn out like that? but even if it's difficult, they still have to take up some kind of responsible right? if they think by sending thier child here, they are doing all they can, fine...but at least come visit them or bring them home once in a while...they really need it....even if it doesn't look like they even know what's happening............


P/S..this blog was in draft since 28th of feb. ><