it's been ages since i last typed.

sometimes i think, is there still a point, blogging when i feel like it? i dont wish for people to read it yet, i hate having things all cooked up inside :(

it's been a unproductive and dissapointing day.

who am i? i keep wondering. i want to be the good natured person but i cant. i, but......

argh, forget it.

i'm just depressed.

dont mind me.

i am afterall VERY independent.

so independent in fact,

that when i reallly need or want people next to me,

they tell me,

"u ok?"

or

"she's very positive, u'll sort this out yourself, wont you , dear?"

and i'll just keep my mouth shut

my heart closed

and smile my happy confident smile.

















i'm sorry if it's all messed up, i'm just typing anything that crosses my mind without arranging them :/ dont bother understanding them.

you wont.